I don't know what to do.  I'm scared out of my mind and I feel like my life is spinning out of control.  It's like I'm watching myself loose everything, and there's nothing i can do about it.  It doesn't even feel real anymore.  the pain is constant and at times, unbearable...it's only been like this for a few days, but it feels like it's been ( Read more... )

to my disease...
i hate you.
nothing has ever given me as much pain as you have...
nothing has made me cry more then you...
you have made me frustrated...
you have broken me down until i was (almost) hopeless...
i have hated myself because of you...
i have wished that life would end, all because of you...
so much pain and strife, you have caused me...
i ( Read more... )

So there's a lot going on right now....And, as I've warned in the past, if you don't want to listen to me complain, stop reading NOW.  I'm sick again....and i don't feel good at all.  i'm not really sure what happened, but i'm guessing my meds just decided to stop working...i gotta go back to the hospital on thursday and i guess we're just gonna ( Read more... )

So....Guess what?  Definatley did NOT go camping this weekend.  I was soooo sad!  We were already to go, and when we got to Chris' apartment to pick up his friends, they decided they didn't want to go because of the weather.  So then Chris didn't want to go either....I was the only one.  lol.  now that i think about it, it prob. wouldn't have been ( Read more... )

I'm going camping tonight!  Yahoo!  So excited, it's gonna be so much fun.  It's supposed to rain tomorrow and that might change some of our plans....but that's alright.  I'm just happy I get to spend the weekend with Chris.

So I just got back from spending the morning with my weeble!  HeHe.  It sucks that me and my sister are finally starting to ( Read more... )

Sorry, I forget to tell you all what kind of mood I'm in................

I'm in a weird mood. I'm going camping tomorrow!  Yay.  Poor Jess is getting her teeth yanked in the morning, and I feel bad.  I think I'd die if I had to have my teeth pulled.  Sooooo, worked sucked again tonight.  Oh well.  I can't keep a single thought going tonight.  I'm just....in a weird mood as I already said.  Camping tomorrow!  wait.... ( Read more... )

So for some reason I still can't post comments in Live Journal...And that's def. a pain in the butt because people write stuff to me and I can't write back.  Sooooo, I've decided to write everyone who comments in my journal, their very own entry!  Yahoo, you should feel special!  Lol.

*bRiAn* I went to the store and everything is SoOoOoOo good!  ( Read more... )

So yea...The end of the summer isn't going so well...I don't want to leave for school, I don't think I'm ready.  I hate dealing with conflict and annoying people and that's gonna be a problem.  I know I'm gonna have to change a lot about myself and the way I look at things, but....I don't know.  I don't really know where I was going with that.  but ( Read more... )

So today we went dorm shopping....From 9 in the morning, till 4 in the afternoon....All we did was shop.  I bought sooo much stuff, but at least it was all stuff I needed.  My whole room is gonna be pink and purple...Girly colors!  Yay!  HeHe.  My dorm room is gonna be nicer than my room at home.  lol. we ended up buying 4 trash cans....gotta bring ( Read more... )