(are you still there?)

[loonylupinlover]

Feeling really stressed lately, mostly under the surface where it's hard to get a handle on it. I suppose I have a fair amount of things to be stressed about.

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[zwildeb]

-I read. I really enjoy reading all about your school escapades.
-I don't comments much because It feels silly to leave a comment that just says 'cool.'
-Also, I haven't heard hide nor hair from either you or Ben since I came down to visit...I was concerned something is/was wrong.
-Best wishes to your Mom, she seems like such a neat lady.

[loonylupinlover]

Thanks, Kate, no worries. Sorry I haven't gotten back to you. Ben's been trying but he only has an AIM address for you and hasn't seen you around when he's been on. As you can guess things've been pretty stressful lately (for both of us, Ben's been ill and adjusting to balancing school and work) and I've been bad about getting back to people lately. When I got your message (a few days after you sent it) it was too late for the weekend, which was full of Ben being sick anyway, so it wouldn't have worked out either way. But I really, REALLY appreciate the tea that came the other day <3

[zwildeb]

Good to know you got it. I was sorry it had to wait to go through the mail.

It was just really frustrating to spend all that money for the express purpose of seeing you guys and then not see you guys.

I signed onto AIM and sent a gazillion messages to him that AIM said would be given to him as soon as he signed on. Maybe I have an old AIM address for him. Mine is still zfileb. I'll stay logged in for the next couple of days. Feel free to get ahold of me.

ALSO, will you have free time in SF? I'd love to have lunch/hang out while you're up here.

[loonylupinlover]

Unfortunately I won't have any free time in SF, it looks like. During the day I'll be sitting in on the board's wildlife meetings and presenting my poster, meals are paid for at the hotel and are times to network with people there, and then the evenings seem to be for tours of local wildlife centers and hobnobbing with board members for more networking. On top of that it's 1.5 weeks before finals so I'll need to get some studying in as well. So yeah, not so much with the free time.

[peacebone]

I've been much worse at commenting than normal - and "normal" is already pretty bad - lately, but I am definitely here and reading. (I have this paralyzing fear, even if I am cognitively 100% certain that this is not true, that comments that I leave or social interactions that I initiate are either wrong and dumb and doomed to rejection or not wanted in the first place, and this sometimes contributes to my lack of commenting. Even if I know it's not true, the fear is still there... I really do read everything on my flist, though.)

I really hope that your mom is okay, and Charlotte, too. And good luck on your presentation and poster and all - gah, that sounds like a lot of stress.

[loonylupinlover]

Awww, I wish I could help with your fear! And not wholly for the purely selfish reason of garnering more comments from you ;) I know that feeling of "UR DOING IT WRONG" for social stuff and ugh, it sucks. But if you can see the post I'm making, that means that any social interactions I get from you are definitely wanted and not in the least dumb. I defriend people who make dumb comments -- see? http://loonylupinlover.livejournal.com/298892.html#cutid1 If your comments were anything like that -- boring and stupid and dumb -- I'd've done the same to you :-P Yours are most assuredly good, and much-welcomed :)

Thanks. The poster is looming biggest in my mind right now... there is prize money involved that could potentially determine my summer plans (first prize is $5000) and so that makes my gut get all twisty and hopeful and scared.

[loonylupinlover]

Where you at, woman! :-P

[prettyh]

I read it! Even when I can't make my fingers bend well enough to comment, I'm definitely reading. And I loved the photo of you that you posted in the O.R.!

(FWIW, I used to post stuff that would NEVER get fewer than double-digit comments, and it wasn't unusual to get into the TRIPLE digits. LJ has gotten terribly quiet in the last year or so. I've had other friends mention it, too, and say they feel as though they're talking to themselves. It's not you. That much I know. xo)

My FMS doesn't always let me say so, but...I'm here. ♥

ETA: D'oh. Added a load of good wishes for your mom, and then promptly deleted the two lines before hitting 'post comment'. I'm waiting to hear back on my own mother's biopsies, too, so I can relate to your anxiety, and I'm sending nothing but positivity your way. I look forward to reading your post of Good News about her. :)

[loonylupinlover]

All right, I'm glad it's not just me. I have definitely been feeling the LJ activity, at least in my neck of the woods, seep away; my close RL friends who used to use the site frequently have stopped, and so have some of my closer fannish friends. It's now getting down to a handful of people who comment, it seems, and most are people I don't know super well yet. Wonder if LJ has just plain gone out of style or if my friends just don't use the internet much anymore (perish the thought!).

Thank you <3 and per your ETA, I did indeed get good news today, it came back normal :-D She has a significantly increased risk of developing something someday, now, based on her previous biopsy, but frequent mammograms will more than likely get anything than develops. For now she's good to go! Hope that things go similarly well for your mom <3

[evilnel]

I'm here! I feel like nobody reads my journal either, but then suddenly I'll get a post with 209385235 comments and think 'oh, people just only comment on certain posts.'

Sorry to hear about your mom--hope everything is okay with here. I'll keep her in my prayers.

[loonylupinlover]

Yeah, what is the deal with that? Clearly you need to do a sociological research study on it. ;)

Results came back negative! :-D

[evilnel]

Really glad to hear everything is okay!