Mariah can contest to this. I am a god damn fool.

We now return to your regularly scheduled journal skimming.

I feel so disconnected lately. I did something that I shouldn't have done a few days ago. I don't regret it but ever since then I've felt....slightly less myself. I keep getting Mariah's voicemail. I need to talk to someone so much that it's driving me up a wall. My fake fiancee has been MIA for awhile as well. It's like everything happened all at ( Read more... )

The world is not your oyster. And I am an idiot.

How hard is it to ignore someone? Very. I try to avoid negativity in all forms, but reading things lately has brought me to a new point of depression. Words are worse than actions sometimes. How cliche of me to say right? You can call me a bad actress, or a bad singer or a bad person any time you want but you can't just run up to someone and smack ( Read more... )

Happy Birthday Marshall.

I have a suprise for you, but I guess you can come get it later.

ahaha oh lord, or you can just click this it's even better

I have a cold. I am coughing and sneezing and basically hacking up a lung or two in the process. I went to the store to buy some cold medicine but didn't realize that I bought childrens cold medicine. I suppose this is the last time I go without having someone to help me out. I believe I just might be completely retarded ( Read more... )

I don't have much of a social life lately. Besides trips to various islands to get my mind off Ben, I really don't do much else. I don't know if this is healthy and quite frankly I don't care. Alone time is what makes the world go round. I mean, when you pay someone to carry you over puddles, you need a few minutes to yourself sometimes. I'm going ( Read more... )

I know. I'm just as suprised as you are.

Apparently I made Ben sign a prenup that says if he cheats me on, I get half of everything he is worth. I don't know about you, but I am one smart cookie ( Read more... )

It feels like it's been so long since I've had a minute to sit down and catch up with myself, let alone catching up with the rest of you. If I had known for one split second that Alan's idea of Ben "cheating with strippers" was going to be such a huge issue, I would have told him to shove the idea up his pompous ass. If you could imagine, it's an ( Read more... )