NO NO NO NO NO! I SHOULDN'T HAVE TO STAY HOME ALL ALONE FOR A WHOLE YEAR WHEN ALL OF MY FRIENDS ARE SO FAR AWAY!!!! IT'S JUST WRONG WRONG WRONG AND MY MOTHER TELLS ME TO MAKE FRIENDS WITH A HORSE AND IT'S SO CRUEL YOU DON'T LOCK A NINETEEN YEAR OLD UP IN THEIR HOUSE WITHOUT PEOPLE THE SAME AGE AT HAND! AND I CAN'T DEAL WITH EVERYONE GOING ( Read more... )

You can assume one of three things when I haven't updated in a very long time. First, and probably most likely, I have been just too lazy to lift my fingers repeatedly above the keyboard for fifteen minutes or more... or too unmotivated to even drag my pale, sagging ass over to the computer. Second, I am not too lazy, but too humiliated because not ( Read more... )

My family attempted to celebrate my Mum's birthday yesterday. As usual, reckless mayhem and systematic, adverse events occured as a result of it. At least I maintained a sense of humour throughout and derived a strange sense of entertainment from my family's organizational skills. Especially when my mom came home expecting her favourite dinner to ( Read more... )

Wondered around and found myself attending my friend's graduation out of guilt. Wasn't going to go because I knew it would depress me. Died my hair at 3 AM, woke up at 7, couldn't fall back asleep, went jogging at 9. Wish I was asleep. Am updating my journal out of guilt. Wish I had something worth saying, or at least the motivation and creativity ( Read more... )

i've got the strict dark hairline and pure linen whites trailing past my shameful knees and i breathe like i'm not here and smile when the portraitist isn't looking Avoiding dilated pupils and bear-hands stretching toward my twisting spine snapping like peas in a pod Why can't i have my idaho back in a shoebox? i'd gather all of the coldness and ( Read more... )

It's funny, when given copious amounts of time at home to do whatever I want, instead of becoming more productive and doing all of the countless things I complained I didn't have time for during the school year, I become a useless pile of mass. Well... not entirely unproductive. You see, I compulsively make lists that usually look something like ( Read more... )

I am trying to conquer my fear of spiders. I stared at one on my driveway for a really long time. I appreciate the way they can capture dew in it's most delicate form. Leaves collect dew like cupped hands with patient fingers. Spider-webs let the dew fall on the threads like ornaments on a Christmas tree or the way I imagined fairy orbs glowing on ( Read more... )

... because she was the one who helped me make this account... and by that I nearly mean that she was the one who made it because I am completely incompetent in the great new world of technology ( Read more... )