as i sit here alone in this room i'm reminded of the good things my dad gave me &my own as i think i remeber the fishing & the laughs the sickness & the tears as i sit here i want yestruday back when i had no worrys & less tears when i had no worrys about backstabbings & rumors as i sit in this room in the dark i'm reminded of days i will never ( Read more... )

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why must 1 be used so ......why must calls come when theres no1 else......why say your friends when you feel it will help you & not when its true...why must good ppl get walked all over all the time......why why why say friends for ever when you know its never .........& if it was ever there why not call just to chill & not to come clean or do ( Read more... )

Lord of Death ( Read more... )

Well i guess im just updating this for the hell of it not like anyone even remotely reads my posts or if they do they probally dont care how i feel... Anyways im not doing to good emotionally or physically things arent getting any better for me... all my attempts to make things better are destroyed and blow up in my face but you know i should be ( Read more... )

to all the ppl i hurt in my life time i'm sry as i learned this week life is short & you never know when your gunna go & as my life goes on i dont give a damn either way for me i dont wanna bring any1 into the hellhole i call my life i'm jus gunna push ppl away & i dont care anymore i hurt tomany ppl & i know i hurt a person that gave 2 shits ( Read more... )

why must the good ppl lose their babys & all the assholes have healthy 1's i will forever miss our angel my god doughter that i didnt even get to see ;( i will always be there for my family (lynn,eric,nina,alana,joe & all i consider my family ) r.i.p angel my dad will take care of you up there & i'll be there to spoil you 1 day just like your ( Read more... )

to all who read this i'm sry for everthing i put you through i'm sry for being what i am i'm sry for making ppl feel bad sry for everything i dont know what comes next i just guess i'll wait & see life sux & i know it i wish life was better but hey its not & i dont give a shit what happens to me

well yea i almost got shot tonight same old case of wrong place at the wrong time but i wouldnt have cared either way is that bad? i'm sick of everything but oo well thats all for now

yea as we roll into fall i get a lil older a alot more lonely i feel sry for my good friend nazy the holiday's are gunna suck yet again for me but ohwell lol in other news imma uncle again :) new niece lil cutie i'll update soon