The Check Up

[__marcus__]

At the studio today Rhys told us about his plans to marry Dan. I'm happy for him, I am. He has changed for the better since being with Dan, and Dan is actually pretty cool. But I can’t help but worry about Elijah.

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[elijah__j__wood]

Rhys finally got up the balls to call me tonight, repeatedly. I didn't answer but he left a message. One that I should have expected sooner or later. Still now I wish I had answered

[__marcus__]

He opens the door holding a drink that I can smell and I know he knows. He looks good though. He's really grown up a lot since I first met him. Now he looks tired though, I know that look all too well.

"Hey Elijah, I um," I smile and lean against the door jam, "Rhys told me. I wanted to check on you. I was worried. You ok?"

[elijah__j__wood]

I sigh softly and take a sip of my drink. I am not buying the nice guy who cares act. I knew I should have called Rhys back. Now he's sent Marcus over. Great.

I'm not in the mood for fighting or getting a lecture so I just turn and start to walk back to where I left the damn papers. "Fine, I'll sign them, you can give them to him."

[__marcus__]

I follow him and am a bit confused. Is he talking about the divorce papers. I don't want to give them to him.

"Hey man I don't want to give them to him. Let him choke on them. Give them to your lawyer and let him do it. Will charge Rhys for having to keep them on their damn desk and the two minute phone call."

[__marcus__]

We kiss and it's like no other I've ever experience. He shifts and turns and I feel the softness of his wing across my chest and belly as he does. My fingers slip back into his hair as I pull him closer and I feel his hands on my chest then shoulders.

I pull back slightly, he is on his knees on the sofa, his wings stretched out, he is looking up at me... my God he is beautiful! I look into his eyes then over his face as I caress his cheek. My heart pounds with a feeling I've not felt in so long and although it scares me I'm not about to back away.

[elijah__j__wood]

I bite on the inside of my lip as I look up at him. I see that look in his eyes and I feel it in his caress, it sets off little warning bells in my alcohol and smoke fuddled brain.

Yeah I can fuck Marcus if I want but the question running through my head now is should I. I really don't want to be the responsible one right now but he is a friend. I can't just fuck him over. Man but I want to. I want to so bad!

I move to stand and as I do I let myself heal a little from the alcohol and weed so I can think straighter. I feel my feet touch the floor and my fingers rest on his hips, he is still way taller than me, so manly and I can imagine what it would be like to be under him. I tremble and feel the familiar burn of desire as I look up at him and speak softly. "Marcus what are we doing here?"

[__marcus__]

I caress his face before nodding and backing away from him, my heart plunging. "Yeah, I - I'm sorry. The booze.."

Running my fingers through my hair I walk around the sofa to grab my smokes, "I just came over here to check on you not to.. I just," I look at him, "my guard down, and I guess I never really looked at you before...fuck."

What the hell is wrong with me? He's hurting over Rhys, my friend! I don't want to just fuck him either I want... forget it Marcus. He's an angel! Damn but I want him. I want to hold him, make love to him... what is it about this kid that makes men turn inside out for him?!

I lean down and pick up the joint from where we dropped it. Looking at it I shake my head, "I wasn't looking for just a fuck Elijah, I mean... you're breath taking and I just...."

[elijah__j__wood]

I sigh more disappointed in myself than anything but at the same time worried as he keeps talking. I pull in my wings as I move from where I am till I am in front of him again. I reach out and touch his arm. "That's why I hesitated Marcus. I don't want to be the one who hurts you again. Not saying I would but you know... I'm just not sure I can trust my own feelings right now."

I slip my hand up his arm a little more and step closer. "You don't have to go though. We can talk, finish the joint, watch a movie, enjoy each others company. We don't have to be alone."