So This Is The Truth...

[_shox_]

For more than two weeks I have been dreaming of my parents. To dream of them is not uncommon, but everynight and these dreams... they are of battles and I wake with a sense of urgency to help them. I've talked to Dev about it and I get the feeling he can sense my parents and they are indeed together.

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[pierce_h]

I had hoped it would not come to this, but this is his destiny and I can no longer hide it from him. So many questions in his eyes, but I smile softly that I do see disbelief. Pushing off the wall I stub out my smoke in the ash tray on the dresser and move toward them. He stands and moves quickly to me and we embrace.

My God he's gotten big, a man now. I hold him tightly and smile, "I've been watching you son, and I am damn proud of you," he pulls back, smiling from ear to ear with tears in his eyes, "but you have a higher calling now and we need you."

I turn and look at his husband, Devon. "You felt only what was allowed. You gave him peace with that, thank you."

[_shox_]

I am crying and smiling and feeling possibly a bit giddy even! It's my dad, he's alive and here! And proud of me! I know he said something about a higher calling, and with all I've seen that could damn near anything! But my dad!

"Dad, what... I mean how....whatever you need! Is Mom here too?!"

[pierce_h]

I smile and pat his cheek gently, "Sit before you fall down son."

He sits and I sit in the chair next to the bed in front of them both, "Your mother isn;t here, but she is alive."

He laughs and his eyes shine as bright as a child's on Christmas morning. I can't help but smile, "Son, there is so much you don't know, but I know you have seen much," I look at Devon then back to him, "we are no angels, nor are we demons. We are but mere humans, but we are protected. We are the guardians - you are a guardian. Much is in danger with this new Satan - we need you to help us fight him."

[d3v0n_w]

I'm sitting on the bed in a kind of shock but at the same time listening to what his father is saying and seeing Shox so very happy and it's real.

Shox has been going on now for a bit about sensing something and I haven't been able to pick up on a damn thing but suddenly this happens? If they were alive I should have known, that's how it's supposed to work. I sensed them on the other side or I thought so. Obviously not.

It sort of makes me feel a bit turned upside down and not in a good way.

...we need you to help us fight him.

That drags me out of my stupor. "Woah hang on wait, what!" I look at his father as if I did not just hear that. "Fight Satan, no, no, not Shox, that's not happening!"

[_shox_]

I take off after him and grab his arm just as he is outside our room. I pull him back and turn him wrapping my arms around him and bury my face in his neck and hair. "Dev, babe, please. I need you, I love you."

This can't be happening. Once he calms down... I need him to be ok with this. Squeezing my eyes shut I feel the tears fall and my heart aches, "Please trust me, please."

[d3v0n_w]

I want to stay curled up in his arms with all the reality of this distant outside of us but it's not. The possibility the same arms that hold me now may be gone one day crushes at me.

"It's not you I don't trust Shox it's them. If I agree to support you then you promise me to keep Strider out of this, all of it, ever..."

[_shox_]

I pull back and look into his eyes, "I - I don't know if I can babe. He is bound to find out... it will be his decision eventually."

[d3v0n_w]

My heart sinks when he can't make that promise. "You wouldn't stop them would you Shox."

[pierce_h]

His mother and I step out of the shadow and Shox moves to his mother and she holds him as I wrap my arms around them both. "I'm sorry son, I had not anticipated this reaction from him."

We move to the living room and his mother does what she always could with him, calms him and makes him smile. He asks numerous questions and we answer them honestly. We need him to help us because he is quite powerful and we have lost a few of our brothers recently. Is the job dangerous? Yes. Would I die protecting him, of course.

We talk to him in great length about what we guard, the battles we have been in recently, and why we had to leave him. He was too young to join us and until he fathered a child he was not powerful enough. Now with the forming of the Order however, we do not need to hide, we have a much better understanding of so many things - he would not have to leave his family.

His mother takes his hands and tells him, "You do not have to do this Shoxwaken. We will always love you and we will be in your life as long as you want us. I

[d3v0n_w]

I drive and drive and I'm so scared. I pull over and throw up but that acidy burning sits there eating at my insides. Something is so wrong with this

[_shox_]

After some time they leave promising to be back tomorrow. I feel so happy yet so empty. Devon should be here with me getting to know them, sharing in my happiness. Why is he acting this way?

I check on Strider and kiss his cheek before sitting out on the balcony of our room and smoke. I want to be apart of what my family does, I want to make a difference. I want my Jane to support me in whatever I do, and mean it.

Sighing I think about everything they told me - then I think about Dev and Strider. I know Devon is upset and worried. Running my hand through my hair I wonder where he is but then I see the headlights to his car.

Smiling I stand up and make my way to meet him at the front door.

[d3v0n_w]

I pull up in the drive and turn off the engine. That ill feeling hasn't left me and every part of me feels on edge. As I glance at myself in the rear view mirror I see I look as bad as I feel. I reach up and try to sort my hair out but then give up.

I get out of the car, lock it up and head on in. Even that seems to take every ounce of energy I have. I notice a shadow in the light and it makes me jump a little. I stop and look up to see Shox at the door waiting for me.

I attempt a smile. "Sorry I took so long."