Mistakes
I'm so angry at Dad. I know I fucked up, I know I was wicked nasty to Lillie and yeah I did want to hurt her! I wanted her to feel pain cause I was dying inside. But how can I really be mean to her when she isn't capable of truly understanding?
Lillie looks older and in some ways has been more mature than her years.. and maybe I wanted her to be older ... She initiated that first kiss and I'd thought about her in that way for so long, man how I wanted it! My body just took control and left my brain well behind for months.
It's not her fault, I should have known better. Looking at Ana and James I guess I had convinced myself it could happen. Now look at what's happening... Lillie can't live at a fucking vampire den. Dad shouldn't even be living there! He's only there so he doesn't have to see Poppa and Elijah so happy. But fuck he left Poppa!
We are all such a fucked up family. I've got to talk to her, make her come home. Poppa is heart broken and Dad is being a dick. He knows Poppa can't leave the island and Lillie will get caught up in den life and rarely come visit.
I promised Poppa I wouldn't leave the island. It is the safest place, hence why Lillie and Dad should be here. Poppa and Dad gave us the freedom we asked for and we drove each other into the ground, but we would have done that anyway. They trusted us. Time for me to be a man and pay them back.
Sitting on my bed in the tree house I look down at my cell. I wonder if she will even respond...
TEXT:
Lills I'm so sorry. Please come home. Poppa misses you - I miss you. I'm sorry I said such hateful things. I was hurt and being a prick. We need you here. Strider
Lillie looks older and in some ways has been more mature than her years.. and maybe I wanted her to be older ... She initiated that first kiss and I'd thought about her in that way for so long, man how I wanted it! My body just took control and left my brain well behind for months.
It's not her fault, I should have known better. Looking at Ana and James I guess I had convinced myself it could happen. Now look at what's happening... Lillie can't live at a fucking vampire den. Dad shouldn't even be living there! He's only there so he doesn't have to see Poppa and Elijah so happy. But fuck he left Poppa!
We are all such a fucked up family. I've got to talk to her, make her come home. Poppa is heart broken and Dad is being a dick. He knows Poppa can't leave the island and Lillie will get caught up in den life and rarely come visit.
I promised Poppa I wouldn't leave the island. It is the safest place, hence why Lillie and Dad should be here. Poppa and Dad gave us the freedom we asked for and we drove each other into the ground, but we would have done that anyway. They trusted us. Time for me to be a man and pay them back.
Sitting on my bed in the tree house I look down at my cell. I wonder if she will even respond...
TEXT:
Lills I'm so sorry. Please come home. Poppa misses you - I miss you. I'm sorry I said such hateful things. I was hurt and being a prick. We need you here. Strider