so i've been so sick ever since that night. like it's absolutely horrible. I was shaking so bad and sweating at night really bad. my first plane was easy and i felt freat but being on the second plane for like 5 or 6 hours was so so so boring and i kept coughing like i've been smoking since i was 2 and i'm 86. and i was shivering cold and sooo ( Read more... )

"I'm addicted to you, don't you know that you're toxic ( Read more... )

it's like 12:29 am and I'm really anxious and like out of it. I've been like this all day and I almost fainted from shock. Ive layed down a lot and then my mind kept running through so many things. I think I'm going through a mental and physical breakdown. I wanted to go tanning and my mind would not get off of that. I felt like If I didn't drive ( Read more... )

my mom and i had a fight today and she punched me in the head and i threw a cup at her. but of course she comes around and goes i still love you but you need anger management and walks out the door ( Read more... )

I had a good day. I had to sell my soul to my mom to clean the house all on saturday to use the car. So I'm really bad with on paper directions so I was on my way to closter new jersey with just a piece of paper guiding me. And surprisingly enough, I made it all the way there. I only cut a few people off. But I was really proud of myself. ( Read more... )

i really have to update this with a lot of stuff but i feel like just putting this poem i put together on here right now ( Read more... )

i'm really embarassed because of something i have been fighting for years now and just came in realization with. It really sucks and I'm too nervous/embarassed to seek help. Only one true/best friend knows because that in itself took everything I had just to tell one person. And I can't even sometimes look or speak to the person without being sort ( Read more... )

i just really want my license now. like now that i dont have a job, i'm really limited on things to do and opportunities to work. I'm absolutely hungry and bored and my mom won't let me take her car, I know it seems fair because I don't have my license but still. Plus, if it wasn't for her forgetting to get her inspection I prob would have passed ( Read more... )

he's so lucky, he's a star
But he cry, cry, cries with his lonely heart, thinking
If there is nothing missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night.

Lost in an image, in his dream
But there's no one there to wake him up
And the world is spinning, and he keeps on winning
But tell me what happens when it stops?

so ive been visiting family in connecticuit all day and it was really BORING. I didn't want to come at first but then I did and I got $100 dollars from them as a present so I'm happy about that. I hung out with my cousin, he's like 7 and really hyper and crazy. I was trying to nap and he was bothering me, he makes me not want kids when he acts like ( Read more... )