my new life is a lot different than i had expected. im feeling more and more homsick. i think the allusion that im only playing house is finally starting to set in. i miss my mom, my sister my family. my cousins who were my best friends. always a sure shoulder to lean on when i was sad, and always a good laugh. i think what im missing is my own ( Read more... )

Another day goes by and its been 5 months since ive been an adult in the eyes of the law and still a silly teenage girl in the eyes of my mom. Apparently moving out of the house at my age is the most insane and impossible thing a person my age can do. Im not going to have enough money to afford my rent, my car or my weekly shopping sprees. Why ( Read more... )

ok, i was just lookng at the past entry i wrote before the one i just wrote and it said that nick might be moving home but he wasnt sure and i find this very funny because nick has been home for a few months now and we are happy, and zoe didnt get me the pink joan jett shirt so i am shirty, we didnt go camping for the 4th of july but we did go to ( Read more... )

La la la...im in class now, gotta love the 8 am 4 hours classes.NOT! I recently switched over from fashion design to fashion merchandising. I was sitting in Pattern making when i had an epiphany... i dont want to make clothes, i want to buy them. And then i went to my grandmas house and was watching Project Runway and i thought to my self, if i ( Read more... )

Im sooooo damn bored. I feel like i have no life. Im always laying in my stupid bed, eating peanut butter sandwiches, accumulating pounds and pounds of fat. Of course, when im not in bed im at work, but that isnt exactly exhilarating either. i thought these were supposed to be "the days of our lives." I think what im lacking is a best friend to do ( Read more... )

Its funny, how things happen. Its like everything happens for a reason. So much has happened in the past month, aside from graduating high school. Everything fell into place, the things i had been stressing so much over. Im starting a great school in July, and i finally got the guy of my dreams. I know so much has happened between us, and we've had ( Read more... )

Does it have to be this hard, do i have to be this disappointed. Should i feel disappointed? This is just one huge Carrie and Big mess. They break up, they get back together, she expects changes, and gets let down. But what should i expect? I dont know what to feel anymore, i should be happy, but im so lonely. Especially now that my best friend ( Read more... )

So i went to the keys last week. It was so wonderful, i loved the freedom and i loved being with him. I was really happy for the first time in a long time. Well, i mean, lovewise, because i have been really happy with grad bash and prom and graduation and hanging with the pallys. But i felt like that hole had been filled. We're together again and ( Read more... )

so graduation was fun, a little awkward with just a hint of embarrassment. i was so scared to walk up on stage, i didnt know what to do, my mom wanted me to blow her a kiss, my aunt wanted me to do the viking disco bison inferno and my uncles wanted me to moon walk off the stage, but did i do that...NO. because i am le loser that is why. i just ( Read more... )

Everything always seems to fall into place after a while. And thats when God says, wait, things arent supposed to be that easy. So She puts questions into your head, little seeds of doubt that start spreading. Why are things going so well? Why is he being nice now? What happened? And the little voice inside your head tells you seek and you shall ( Read more... )