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I feel like I've spent so much of this weekend in this surreal state. Like, I was so hurt by people... And I was in so much physical pain. I don't think I've ever felt that kind of pain for such long intervals before. My back still hurts, and when I think about what would happen if I slept on the floor, I cringe; I know that I wouldn't be able to get up again, and I'd be stuck in my own house with no one to help me.
I quit my job, but not for the reasons I told everyone. Most of what I tell people is: "Oh, my boss is dumb and inconsiderate. He doesn't understand that I need a day off." That's partially true. But, I think the only person who kind of knows what's going on is my mother. I told her on the phone today: "I'm not happy there." Sort of. No one really knows. I'm not even entirely sure myself. I just know that I'm sort of sinking again, and I'm not really feeling happy when I'm not talking to people. I've been distracting myself, which is good, but realistically, my body can only take so much.
I'm trying to learn something new, and thusfar, it's being rather difficult. It's not something I want help with, though, because I want it to be a surprise. I want it to be something cool and fantastic that people will be like "wow" about. So, yeah. No help. No asking, either, cause I don't want it to be a big deal. But, expect a surprise from me at some point. Hopefully, I can pump something out before the end of the school year. We'll see. But, like I said, it's hard.
I'm likely to be bored out of my skull in English, so we'll see how things go. I loathe that class, but ti should be entertaining enough. I'll be working on my thing.
Also, I need inspirations for more teeshirts. I really need to get into printing them so I can make something epic. And, make some epic money. But, I doubt anyone would want to buy my shit. Or, should I say, SHIrT. I love that name.
Mikaelini. : )
I quit my job, but not for the reasons I told everyone. Most of what I tell people is: "Oh, my boss is dumb and inconsiderate. He doesn't understand that I need a day off." That's partially true. But, I think the only person who kind of knows what's going on is my mother. I told her on the phone today: "I'm not happy there." Sort of. No one really knows. I'm not even entirely sure myself. I just know that I'm sort of sinking again, and I'm not really feeling happy when I'm not talking to people. I've been distracting myself, which is good, but realistically, my body can only take so much.
I'm trying to learn something new, and thusfar, it's being rather difficult. It's not something I want help with, though, because I want it to be a surprise. I want it to be something cool and fantastic that people will be like "wow" about. So, yeah. No help. No asking, either, cause I don't want it to be a big deal. But, expect a surprise from me at some point. Hopefully, I can pump something out before the end of the school year. We'll see. But, like I said, it's hard.
I'm likely to be bored out of my skull in English, so we'll see how things go. I loathe that class, but ti should be entertaining enough. I'll be working on my thing.
Also, I need inspirations for more teeshirts. I really need to get into printing them so I can make something epic. And, make some epic money. But, I doubt anyone would want to buy my shit. Or, should I say, SHIrT. I love that name.
Mikaelini. : )