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I am not: employed at the time
I hurt: with my sunburn all over my body
I love: Ian
I hate: Being away from him
I fear: the future
I hope: that Ian and I will find jobs down here and get an apartment soon
I hear: a Jennifer Lopez video playing while Kelli is unpacking
I crave: to be with Ian
I regret: parts of my life, but everything happens for a reason
I cry: when talking to Ian on the phone 3000 miles away
I care: about a lot of people in my life
I always: end up screwing things up
I long to: have Ian here with me
I feel alone: especially at night here in South Carolina
I listen: when people want to talk to me
I hide: from things that can hurt me in the future
I drive: well, in other people's cars
I sing: on our road trip to stay awake and keep Kelli company
I dance: when Ian is with me, no other time really
I write: not very often
I breathe: a lot easier down here with the humidity
I play: the clarinet, but not recently, I miss it
I miss: Ian at this time until I get home
I have: a lot of stuff that I have to pack
I give: to anyone that I can, and I hate when people give to me if I need it cause I feel like shit
I fight: very rarely, I hate confrontation
I wait: until things seem realistic
I need: To get home
I am: depressed
I think: about all the things in the future that might turn my life around
I can't help the fact that: I am depressed a lot, even though it is so much better now
I stay: in Montana to much, that is why I am moving
I search: for ways to make amy life move in the right direction instead of downward
I learn: new things about life every day
I feel: lonely
I know: that I care about Ian more than anyone
I say: a lot of things that don't make any sense
I fail: to make a life for myself so far
I dream: but lately I don't remember the dreams often, I just always dream about the same people, Ian, Jen, Robert, and other friends in my life
I sleep: very seldom down here
I wonder: what is going to happen in the future
I want: to finish college and get a degree and get my life on track
I worry: about my future