Stupid personal contemplations:
I'm thinking this is just a natural part of being a guy. Maybe. I'm not a scientist (well technically I am a computer scientist for all it is worth).
Lately I've been harboring the desire to be really promiscuous. Like a part of me would like to go out and nail a large number of attractive women. Then the other part goes "Hey Frank, we've been over this before and we're not all about that remember. Remember dude?" If that is something that I'm after then why shouldn't I go for it. I mean, if I'm in the sexual prime of my life and I'm not doing anything about it isn't that a waste? Sure, I have long term relationgship goals but wont I regret not plundering the bounty of the ocean while I had my chance? Stupid genetic hard wiring.
Integrity, sigh. Sometimes I think a person is defined by their own conflict.