[Private Entry]
I've only gone two days without sleep, but after thinking a little more about my dreams-
I don't know.
Should I run the risk of watching that play out in my head again? Maybe I was just stressed or ate something bad before and that's what caused it. Although, I don't think any food could cause something that terrible to happen three nights in a row.
... When I heard everyone talking, back during the war, about Kooluk's new weapon and what happened on Iluya, my chest tightened. I felt that pain after I woke up from my dreams now, too. After I joined up with Lazlo, I think one time, they sailed there to help some of the victims. I can't remember. My memory is horrible when it comes to recalling any of that. But I do know that I didn't leave the ship to go help with the others. I couldn't.
That was one of the very few times that I can clearly remember wanting to cry. Tch, this kinda thing isn't exactly something men go musing about on paper or whatever..
I get more and more tired staring at my own hand writing.