In the midst of my confusion, in the horrible loneliness that consumes me. I look to one thing, faith. I try to realize that this is the lords will. But I can’t stop morning, the nights are horrible and the mornings are unbearable. I remember about a year ago, with Joan of arc. That very entry I wrote was the meeting of a girl I still love. In fact ( Read more... )

no time to write. but my life has been great. I truely get on my knees every night and thank God for what he had done for me, even though i sin against him and myself, although i try to repent on some things. I really thank him for three things, my talent i have in school, my family, who is getting better, and Laura, who is truley an angel that ( Read more... )

Oh how miserable I am right now. Im literally about to just scream in anger for no reason. Its terrible, Im so dependent on one person to make me better that when I don’t hear or talk to that person, I go into this sadden state of my mind. I just plunge into the depths of my lonlieness and I only have myself to bring me up. This isn’t a criticism ( Read more... )

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I knew I would have the perfect time where I would actually want to have an entry, want to spill my soul out for all you to read and soke up. Here it is, the only problem is that I don’t exactly know what I am writing about. Hmmm, lets start with a great day, a fun day, a day that makes me both happy and my stomach curl, my Sunday. My Sunday ( Read more... )

and i hate roller coasters, let me tell you.....i finally found a soung that i can relate to about all this. Which is good, because other then that all i have was god all this time. Its funny too, this song is called blue moon, where i and two others ate toay. Also, its by mxpx, a band i love to death....here you go ( Read more... )

Oh lordy am i in such a weird mood, a mood that i havent really had in some time. I have this bloddy pink hair band still on my arm, i really am getting quite use to it. Yesterday was really one of the better days of this summer. I went over to lauras and watched the complete hitchhikers guide to the galaxy, which was awesome. Then she made me ( Read more... )

Today I am writing in the notebook that will be typed onto Microsoft word, and then put in my live journal for all of you to see. But first, since most of my entries have been in the very distant past. I have decided to give all of you an up-to-dater. Or, as I like to say, a UTD. It sort of sounds like that potato chip. You know, the one that’s in ( Read more... )

Oh! (Sad oh) we got up at 7 in the morning to finish our trip to Michigan. My parents have this little habit of stopping midway to there destinations, and finish them in the morning. I’ve always have been against this paticualar idea. Although I have never had the courage to voice my opinion on such a small matter. Anyways, let me tell you how we ( Read more... )