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[lost_n_found]

a guilty confession:
when my dad called me, and said he had some bad news to tell me...
the first thing i thought was 'oh fuck, my cat thelonious died! or hobbes!'
and i admit, however fucked up it sounds, that i was relieved it was just my grandpa killing himself.

how awful is that?

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hmm..

[hamsterbong]

it is not so awful, really. i'd think it is most natural given the nature of the relationship you've had with your grandpa.

the truth is that you have taken more time than many people would have in your situation - to think about him and his life. and you remembered him.. and really, what else could be asked of you? you are a thoughtful and caring person, mister.

i think given the situation, the most important thing for you to do is not really to feel sad for his absence in your life but perhaps to comfort anyone (your parents, in this case) who may have had more of an attachment to him. as best you can, anyway.

but mostly i had just wanted to say that it is not really an awful reaction. yes, that is what i wanted to say.