Well I am about 5 months pregnant and so far everything is going pretty well. I'm excited and I can't wait. I was going to come on here a little earlier and say how great everything was, that was until I just talked to Drew and little things just got blown out of proportion. He left me here with his son, no big deal, and said that he was going to ( Read more... )

 So here's the deal: things got really rough just a little bit ago with a certain boy. Taking a knee to the face isn't always the funnest, or easiest thing to do. We got through that. Thanks mom! I felt bad for having his baby wake-up the next morning and me not being there. It wasn't easy for any of us. I really care for this boy and his child. I  ( Read more... )

Suicide sounds like a great fucking idea.

Life just really sucks and I don't have anyone to talk to about it.

The only person that I really want to talk to about it, won't talk to me and I hate that!!!

Its been a little while since I've last updated this. Things haven't really changed all that much, Drew and I are doing fine, that I know of. lol. I'm  spending a lot of time with my family, which is amazing. I'm mending broken friendships with people that i haven't talked to in awhile. Nichole and I are talking again (my cousin). So hopefully we' ( Read more... )

So I've been thinking about a lot of things lately. I have come to the conclusion that I don't miss Sean. I miss the things that we used to do together. Like the trips that we would go on, the restaurants that we would eat at , the Shriner's, his family and that kind of stuff. But I know that I can do most of that without him. Yah, it'll cost me ( Read more... )

Have you ver hated someone and loved them at the same exact time? That's exactly how I feel. But the thing is, I don't want to love him anymore. I have fallen in love with someone else who I want things to work out with. I love him and his son. I know that someday I will stop loving the boy and let myself completely fall for Drew, but its too hard ( Read more... )

Wow, after those entries saying how much I want Sean back, I realize now that I really, truly don't. I've been having so much fun without him and getting to really know myself and my friends, more than I ever have. Yah, I've done some stupid things since we've broken-up (drinking...but not getting drunk) but I've throughly enjoyed myself. I've met ( Read more... )

I know that I am a strong person. But I don't know how strong I can be with no one back me up. I feel so weak, vulnerable, emotional, hurt, broken, etc. The list goes on and on. I think that I need help, so I am going to the Dr's on Tuesday. But that will not help the heart break that I am going through. It's the hardest one that I have ever had to ( Read more... )

 So here's the thing. I got matching a matching tattoo with two of my friends. And I got my bellybutton pierced. This tattoo was my fourth one and so obviously they don't hurt me at all. As I was getting my bellybutton pierced I about puked everywhere. It was such intense pain. And i don't know why. I didn't watch anything that was going on. ( Read more... )

point blank: Sean broke-up with me today. He said that he was happier when he wasn't with me.

I bet everyone feels that way.