I'm dying inside. I'm empty, I have no motivation. I'm lying to get out of doing the things I once loved. I've fallen backwards to Junior year all over again. My anxiety is awful, my depression is even worse. I'm broken without reason. I don't want to talk to any of my friends. I ignore their phone calls. I sleep all day and stay up all night. ( Read more... )

 So the search begins. I'm looking for a new therapist since mine took off cross country in may. perfect timing right ( Read more... )

Things are not going as planned. I do not have any clue where I'll end up in the fall, I have no idea what I'm doing at work, and I feel the few people I enjoy hanging around slipping from me. I just, I don't know how to be honest, I don't know how to open up, and I sure as hell don't know much about myself. I'm stuck in a place I don't want to be ( Read more... )

 It's so hard not to think about him. I miss him every day. I really thought I'd be better at this by now. I guess the best I can do is write about it and try to let it go. From my mind, to paper, to nothing. That's what I'm hoping for at least ( Read more... )

 Well 2009 hasn't started the way I had wanted it to start. I've been depressed like no other. Constantly thinking about the past. It's time to let go. It's time to keep it where it belongs, but it's so hard to give up that list bit of hope I have. It's so hard not to feel like one day he'll be waiting for me at our spot. It's funny I thought I was ( Read more... )

Did you know I'm the most selfish person in the world ( Read more... )

I'm angry. Really angry the last few days ( Read more... )

Thanksgiving was so much fun.
I spent the day with Kate and her family,
even though her family is my own<3.

Kate cooked an amazing Thanksgiving dinner, she's so wonderful, and such a great mom.
Jordi even stopped by! It was great to see her!
Allen got off work, and we ate dinner.
Turkey, stuffing, sweet potatoes,  mashed potatoes, mac and cheese, ( Read more... )

I'll never let you go.

I miss you today.
i shouldn't, but I do.
You're on my heart.

Thanksgiving is tomorrow.
I'm spending the day at Kate's.<3

I have a lot to update about, but don't have time now.

I let you go ( Read more... )