Turns out, I'm a freaking mess. I have a kidney stone that's as bit as a quarter. And the cancer screening they sent me for, well it's back as retarted. I really wanted to talk to someone about it all. But everyone is busy or not on. and the only person who cares enought to not leave me anlone about it is My buddy ( whoms name i cant mention).But i ( Read more... )

As it would turn out.. Guys really do suck ( Read more... )

I had the weirdest dream last night... Rather this morning ( Read more... )

SOMETHING VERY STUPID THAT THEY MADE ME WRITE

It’s like trying to remember something that never really happened... I’ve spent what seems like years trying to find the one thing that has honestly ever made me happy and when it seems like I get close, I’m further then I had ever thought imaginable.
Sometimes I think it’s better to know something then ( Read more... )

It still seems like I’m trying to fight a war against myself in which I know I can never win. Everyday goes by the same way, Wake up. Take a shower. Go to class. Go home. Go to work. Go home. Take a shower. Go to sleep. Wake up…. Do it all over again ( Read more... )

SOmetimes i dont know if im going up or down or what, its like im spinning and where ever i stop ill be. it never seems to want to turn out good around me.. ever.

Lately, things suck. Everything’s going crazy, and somehow I don’t care anymore. I just want to get away from it all and be alone for awhile. It’s like the more I figure out what I want. The more messed up everything is getting… I still don’t know what I’m going to do, I don’t have any clue were I’m going to live, or how I’m going to make it. But I ( Read more... )

It's kind of one of those things were all i hear are lies. about everything goig to school. smoking, lying to me.im done with it.ireally am

WE spent all day yesterday and all day today in orlando, Universal, and Down town disney, It was fun. amazing to an extent. i love being out with him, having fun... I just. still need help with a few things..

Goodnight,

I feel a little better about everything. i thought it through. He doesnt care if i love him or not. so it goes to show. being happy for him. is good. i should be, and i am. All i want is for him to be happy ( Read more... )