I haven't written in a very long time. The last night that I wrote was the night I was dumped by Evann. That's right, read it again, that sound you hear is the sound of my heart shattering into little teeny tiny pieces. Of course, what makes it harder to accept is the way in which it was done. She pretty much gave me the "It's not you, it's me" ( Read more... )

I'm crying, she doesn't know it, but I'm crying. I love her and she doesn't know I'm crying for her. I hate this life. I'm so fucking sick of ups and downs. it's so boring I don't even want to talk about it. I just want to go away somewhere. like even just go to my favorite tree in the back yard and sit under the stars and cry.

I saw the commercial this morning for an MTV special on "Date Rape" and aquaintance rape and I felt sick to my stomach and it made lots of things flash through my mind about what happened to me. But it's strange that I somehow want to see this show. I don't know why. I'm afraid of what my reaction to it will be. I was raped almost 2 years ago ( Read more... )

Evann finally got back yesterday... I just got to talk to her, and I guess I expected some kind of fireworks, or something extraordinary... but it was sorta ho-hum, not much excitement, and she had to leave in a hurry to meet an old friend of hers that's visiting. So here I am, kind of feeling sad, feeling sorry for myself, and wondering why I'm ( Read more... )

I found myself getting really pissed off and upset at a gurl in a Live Journal Community I belong to. Not pissed at her in particular, but the kind of mentality she represents.. I wish I had time to explain now, but I will later, and I hope some of you will give your opinion on whether I'm being nuts about it or not. As a tease, I'll just say it ( Read more... )

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I noticed that everytime I login using that little live journal application, it tells me my password is too easy to guess, so I should change it. This is annoying! first, who's trying to guess my password anyway? hehe.. ummm.. nobody? ... it just started happening too, like in the last couple days ( Read more... )

I just caught the MTV VMA's commercial with the dude from SNL and Natalie Portman... GAWDDDD!! she looked cute, hehe ... and yes, I did see the thong *slurp*
Soon this horniness will break :-p .. sorta like a fever I think... just give it time and lots of attention and it'll break and I'll be left in a sweaty heap on my bed! LOL ... sumthin's gotta

I downloaded the pre-release of Coldplay's new CD last nite while I was sleeping :-D
JOY JOY, hehe...I'm burning it now and I can't wait to drive to work, just so I can get a quick listen!!
Little things like this are making me happy lately :-D

MTV's "Undressed"... hmmm... yeah, that's MY kind of porn, hehe :-p ...
Where else can I see a cute gurl bent over touching her toes in her underwear? For free no less :-D ... every 2 or 3 minutes at that!!
Okay, I'll admit it, I'm pretty horny...