I don't know anymore...

[lostcrusader44]

The past couple of weeks have been such a blur. I don't even know what to say. Nikki has been in this deep depression, and was mad and frustrated w/ me and its just that emotions have been running so high latley. It was inevitable to happen. We both broke down. She is crying right now because of me, because i am ... i can't even say what i am

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[heavensangei]

You better delete this entry after you read this because I KNOW you care about me, and I know you have good intentions, I just hate being helped by people, it's how I am. Even when I was little I had to do EVERYTHING by myself, because I like knowing that I AM able of doing stuff with out anyone's help. It has nothing to do with you being a lower level then me, and firstly you're not at a lower level than me. You understand what's going on in most of your classes, me I only know whats going on in Computer Science. I'm totally lost in Chemistry, English, Math and Spanish. US Cultures I'm confused in because I missed a day, so I don't know what he's talking about right now. I know you get English and Math and Cultures, because I can see if in your eyes when your working that you get it. You'll be done in like 5 minutes, while it takes me like 50 minutes just to read and understand the first question let alone answer 20 questions. Thats one of the reasons why I'm so frustrated anyone, because I can't figure anything out anymore

[sweetangel12]

Don't say you wanna die who would torture me. Besides you shoudln't being saying stuff like that at all. And its goo dthat you wanna help Nikki it's just she wants to do thing by herself. That's just how she is. That's how most girls are we don't want help we wanna figure things out on our on. So don't take anything personally. Just give her time to figure things out and when she can't she'll come to you. Especially when she doesn't get something or is stressed. She understands it better when seh gets it herself. But if she doesn't seem to get she'll go to you.You aren't nothing to her so don't say that either she hears what you say it's that she'll think what she'll think and /you can't change that. And cares a lot about what think and about your opinions. so don't say that either.