I don't know.. I'm depressed in a different way, not because of lonelyness or.. just um stuff... I want to get out and actually have something I can be proud of, make it on my own.. I was hoping to talk to Triela today, but because my mom wanted to get on Triela went to sleep the moment I started talking to her.. I'm not doing well.. I think I'm ( Read more... )

Nevermind.

I haven't posted in awhile. So to start off my reactivity, I'm going to rant baout how much my dad just pisses me off. He doesn't actually try to help he just tells me to go do shit, that I can't even fucking do. No wonder I have high blood pressure. I don't want to talk to him because he alqways comes home and compains about how fucking tired he ( Read more... )

I just realized how out of shape I am. I mean, I'm not really fat, wlel not at all, I don't look fat, but I do have a gut. It's still there, even though my clothes do a decent job of hiding. >.> But I'm going to start doing some sort of routine, but not yet, because I can't even get 20 situps, which is really really pathetic. I was never really all ( Read more... )

The title says it all. I need to get laid or find a girlfriend first. I haven't really been very preoccupied with it, but now I am. Sex sex sex. Well uh... I had a better LJ post before, but since I take so long to write it, while I was in the proccess of minimizing it and maximizing it due to my ADD, I accidentally closed it, and it talked about ( Read more... )

Life used to be so much better... I used to be so much more opimistic. It used to be fun. I don't know what happening to me or life. My mom says I hardly talk to her, I hardly want to talk to her much. I never really wanted to talk to my dad, anyways. I want a car, but I don't. Where would I go? I wish I went into work today, instead of calling in ( Read more... )

What is love ( Read more... )

God.

Why the hell is he such an asshole. He actually fucking wonders why whenever he's home or around, I'm not. He says I don't interact with my family. No, it's not that. I just don't interact with him. I'm helping my mom with stuff when he's not home, I talk to her enough. I go out with her to stores most of the time. Me and her get along decent ( Read more... )

Everything went fine today I guess, and I thought of a couple good questiosn though I only remember one ( Read more... )

Well, um, I haven't posted in a few days. Erm... I think? I'm kinda doing what I used to do awhiel back before I really got into RO. Like just sit around, play Xbox, PS2, other PC Games besides RO. It's not that I'm bored of it, or I don't like it, it's that I'm not addicted to RO anymore. o.o Which I dunno if it's bad or good for me or Rei >.>. I' ( Read more... )