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I showed them my manuscript. It was impressive, except for the fact that Zack had drawn on it. The first interviewer didnt look plussed, however the second did. They were looking over Zack's as well. they were impressed by my art and writing skills. the second guy said that we had hope. the other made weird noises. zack's sister came over and gave ( Read more... )

 
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my imaginary friend..classified as shadow to the cyber world, has been poking me to let himself be known. he looks like my  true inner self, and he is yin and yang, good and bad. he resides within my world with no sunlight, where every day has a gray sky and plenty of rain to muster. every day dies with a blue sunset, and every morning is born with ( Read more... )

as leaving your bedroom
to just come back and find him there 
is there anything so depleteing
as going for a walk and returning
everbody dead
is there nothing left
so you shoot yourself in the head
are you truly that lost and incomplete
has your sanity truly hit delete
do you know how i love you
id come down from above and save you
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ive been having alot of strange dreams lately. i mean, i usually do..but these last few nights....
I dreamt that we (zack and i) were at school...and then it was lunch time
and we ate behind these pillars so that no one else could see us. we were hiding from the rest of the kids.
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tired and restless
i creep to my bed
secret whisperer
my darling by my side
sleep evades my  eyes
far away in my castle
i lie with my darling by my side
naked so that there is nothing to hide
absinethe, lucrid dreaming, and ocean waves
will keep us alive.
touch, your fingers beautifully twine into mine
our eyes closed forever
to open again in another time.

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I'm eighteen years old, going on forty. Ive seen alot from people in this short period of time. How people act, what goes on, how people's mind works. my therapist suggested gently that i think i have all the answers. no, no  one knows everything, i said, or something similar. nobody seems to be interested in what im interested in. zack comes ( Read more... )

 
mythical death


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my inner self portrait

i have long soft ink black hair. it goes past my chin and it falls into my hazel eyes. i have a very small nose and pale skin. my eyebrows are soft and small, but not too small for a guy's. i am about 5 foot 7, trim frame. i wear flannels and jackets and black cargo pants. forever ( Read more... )