I MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!!! Things are going alright here, I would actually love it if you guys (and i hope you all know who you are) were here with me...i feel like it is a good spot for me, but i also feel kinda empty...as i meet new people and start making new friends, i realize that no one will ever be better than the basis for my comparison ( Read more... )

so yeah...dont be surprised if you find i havent even gone ANYWHERE tomorrow...my mom, surprise surprise, when it comes right down to it is being a dirty fucking cunt. she wants my dad to take me to the airport, but he cant pick me up tomorrow, wants to pick me up at 4 today and then have me spend the time before the plane tomorrow going to his ( Read more... )

talking about moving isnt all that hard. goodbyes before goodbyes arent that heart. reality setting in and realizing oh my god im leaving on wednesday, and that there is no way i will see everyone i want to see or say everything i want to say is really fucking hard. i feel sick, i feel really depressed. last night would have sucked cuz i wanted ( Read more... )

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alright, so the definite date i am leaving is june 30th. ill probably be in town for a little while on friday night, and possibly tomorrow too. im getting nervous, this is really weird. in a way, you guys are all coming with me, colby says ill be back (and hes usually right) but im definitely going for now, ahhh confliction of nervousness and ( Read more... )

so yeah, i just got back from illinois, and i had such a good time that i am going to move there. my life here, except for some of you, and you know who you are, has become so stagnant and miserable, i need to try a change. there is more opportunity for me out there, and i think i will be happy overall, though i will miss some of you terribly. i ( Read more... )

well, im going to visit my family in illinois near chicago for a week, should be alright, could be fun. i got to go see ginger and colby's little Evan yesterday, he's really cute. CONGRADULATIONS! (and a huge welcome to our families tiniest juggalo)

ever get the feeling when it goes from nothing will be okay to it will all work out? yeah...i think things are gonna start getting better, like all across the board. ive decided scott and i will work shit out, 6 years is worth more than 6 months. fuck the bullshit, nothings been really right since we started hating eachother, it seemed to tear ( Read more... )

how do i feel about all of this...i've been thinking about it a lot and i just don't fucking know. i do know this much, however. when colby decided to say he only hated me a little bit now, no explanation, no nothing, i accepted it because all he did was not like me, whether i knew why or not. i don't feel like the same should workd for scott, i ( Read more... )

I'm a Philosopher/Scientist!


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