Comments | lostsnowbird: acknowledging a let-down

lostsnowbird

acknowledging a let-down

Oct 27, 2009 00:06

This journal is fast becoming my on-call diaries. Sitting up late at night at the hospital as I round out my 19th hour of the work day inspires some reflection, albeit negative. I'm in week 11 of my 12 week surgery rotation and I'm left with a lot of pretty personal questions that I can't answer but would be foolish to ignore. On the one hand, I ( Read more... )

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mastaodaunivers October 27 2009, 12:13:39 UTC

It's so stupid that the surgeons act like that. It's like they are making up for their own residencies. It's pretty much like a grown up that was abused as a child "getting back" by abusing their own children. What a ridiculous cycle. At least you are getting some clinical experience though. I tried to get a CNA job for about 6 months with no luck, and ended getting a call center job at express scripts. I'm on the phone with people helping them with their Rxs 8 hours a day...or just letting them bitch because I'm not allowed to hang up on them. I don't think PA schools would be impressed but I needed a job. The other day I witnessed someone addicted to their hydrocodone and I'm learning a lot of drug names...meeeh, keep repeating to myself "at least I have a job, at least I have a job"...wow this was a long comment. I feel your pain of getting bitched at a lot...at work I try to remain as unaffected and cheery as possible. It's worked pretty well so far. One day this will all be a distant memory!! Try making a joke..wonder if the ( ... )

lostsnowbird October 27 2009, 13:30:24 UTC

I'm glad you found work, but I totally understand that just having a job doesn't make up for the fact that you're not excited about it. I envy the fact that you get paid and have a set eight hour workday! And learning generic and trade drug names is a REALLY good skill. As for PAs at my hospital, they do really well...it seems like a really good career and in a lot of ways, a better route than MD. Less school, less debt, and the ones who work in subspecialties (especially urology) are really happy and get paid a lot. They have great lifestyles and it didn't take them years and years to get there.

As for cracking jokes, I try...I try to be approachable, clever, smart helpful, etc...everything you would do in my situation, and it's almost never to any avail. I actually left in tears for the first time this morning...it was over something really small but I finally cracked.

Thanks for the support, I hope things get better with you too and I agree - can't wait for this to be a memory!

mastaodaunivers October 28 2009, 03:12:37 UTC

Funny story-a PA bitched at me on the phone today. I thought about telling him that my goal was to be a PA but I felt he would have said, "Good luck, you idiot!" since I was having a hard time understanding what his question was since he was afraid to admit that he actually needed info/my help. Ughh egomaniacs are everywhere! I'm so sorry you had a bad day ( ... )