don't say goodbye: drabble
2pm drabble
jay/taec, some ot7
written based on how i feel right now
I can’t read your feelings since you try not to meet eyes with me
Because I feel like a lost child, I just wait
i.
Another group dinner. Taecyeon reads Jay's face yet again. His face was unreadable, almost blank, staring at his empty rice bowl.
"Hyung...have some more meat," A voice called out from the table.
He shakes his head. "No thanks, Chansung. Just eat it."
Taecyeon stares.
"Hyung, there's some ramyun left..." Another one said.
"You guys eat it, I'm fine."
Taecyeon stares, and stares, until Jay finally looks up and sees him.
"I left a dumpling for you, eat it hyung."
"Gwenchana-yah, I'm full already, it's okay."
Unlike the other members, Taecyeon says no words, but his eyes tell it all.
Eat, Jay, please.
It's Nichkhun's turn to ask. He takes a deep breath, and tries, "Jay-hyung, there's more rice. Want some?"
Jay looks into Taecyeon's eyes, those eyes that loved him... and looked away.
"I don't want it."
It goes on for days.
Truthfully, I know what you’re going to say,
But I can feel that it’s not your whole heart; your tears tell me
ii.
A sleepy Taecyeon wakes up to Nichkhun's loud alarm clock at five in the morning, something he picked up while in Tokyo.
Schedules...interviews...what shit music program do i have to host today? Oh right. Inki. Whoopeedoo.
As usual, he goes to Jay and Junho's room, to wake them up (they can never seem to hear alarm clocks). He's about to go in when he realised that Jay's already awake - he's holding up a polaroid picture of all of them, the one when they just debuted.
Jay's favourite picture.
Taecyeon notices the sniffles, the constant caressing of the picture, the tissue paper...
the tears.
Taecyeon counts to twelve, extra slowly, just in case, and goes into the room. "Hyung-ah, we have to go for a schedule. Hurry and get washed up." He pretends he didn't see the tears, the sniffles, the tissues, and leaves.
Ok Taecyeon, you are a fucking coward. You have no guts.
I won’t allow it - your lie of wanting to seperate, look in my eyes and tell me,
It’s not…it’s not the truth
iii.
"I-I can't take this anymore. I have to go."
As soon as he said that, Taecyeon froze.
"H-hyung? Go..go where?" Wooyoung asks, tears glistening in his eyes.
Jay took a deep breath and says it quietly. "Seattle. I want to quit."
Nichkhun laughs nervously.
"Hyung, don't joke. Are you serious? Hyung...hyung!"
"Jay...tell me it isn't true...tell me it's not the truth." Taecyeon finally spoke.
When he saw a single tear cascade down Jay's cheek,
he felt like someone set him on fire.
Don’t say goodbye, I can hear your heart telling me not to let go of your hands,
I can hear your heart; You still just want us
iv.
He stood at Incheon airport, watching Jay walking towards the gates, his back facing them.
This is it.
Wooyoung and Nichkhun were crying, Chansung was just down on the floor, swearing every single swear word he possibly knew in any language, and Junsu and Junho were on the chairs, head buried in their hands.
Taecyeon wanted to run, run after his hyung, telling him everything's going to be fine, just lay low for a while,
but he stood rooted to the ground.
Don’t say goodbye, don’t leave me now, the promises all of us shared...they're
Everything
To
Me
********************
A year later
Junho, Chansung, Wooyoung, Junsu, Nichkhun and Taecyeon stood at the stage, the stage of dreams. Their stage of dreams, since they were trainees, heck, since they were even kids.
It was time for Taecyeon's solo stage. He was going to do a cover of a song that he held so dear to his heart, like his own personal anthem.
He took a deep breath and began to rap the first few lines:
"Don’t say goodbye, you are my everything to me,
My tired days only look for you,
Like a pond which won’t dry, I’ll love you,
You are my love, you are my soul....."
He stopped halfway. He felt like he was going to burst from all the overwhelming emotions the song gave him.
He felt so vulnerable then, so young, so fragile, so weak.
He felt like he was going to break.
All of a sudden, a voice from the wings started rapping his song, from where he stopped.
"Don’t say goodbye, you are the only one for me...."
He could recognise that voice anytime.
***********************
The fans went wild. Some screaming, some crying, some excitedly dialling their friends, he didn't know.
And he didn't care.
When the rest of the members went up on stage, smiling the biggest grins, giving them the biggest hugs ever, that was when Taecyeon started crying for the first time. He didn't stop; he just let all the emotions that he kept in for the past year out. He kept on crying.
It was Jay Park. Park Jaebum. Seductor of Jessica. His leader. His best friend.
And the person he missed most.
"Don’t say goodbye, you are the only one for me,
As if nothing has happened, if today passes,
Let’s not let go of each other, and we’ll make it through,
Cause you are my everything to me,
Cause you are my everything to me "
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a/n: i couldn't not bring jay back, could i? i hope you enjoy reading as much as i enjoyed writing! song lyrics are from my dong bang boys, don't say goodbye by DBSK :) comments and crit are always appreciated. ♥
jay/taec, some ot7
written based on how i feel right now
I can’t read your feelings since you try not to meet eyes with me
Because I feel like a lost child, I just wait
i.
Another group dinner. Taecyeon reads Jay's face yet again. His face was unreadable, almost blank, staring at his empty rice bowl.
"Hyung...have some more meat," A voice called out from the table.
He shakes his head. "No thanks, Chansung. Just eat it."
Taecyeon stares.
"Hyung, there's some ramyun left..." Another one said.
"You guys eat it, I'm fine."
Taecyeon stares, and stares, until Jay finally looks up and sees him.
"I left a dumpling for you, eat it hyung."
"Gwenchana-yah, I'm full already, it's okay."
Unlike the other members, Taecyeon says no words, but his eyes tell it all.
Eat, Jay, please.
It's Nichkhun's turn to ask. He takes a deep breath, and tries, "Jay-hyung, there's more rice. Want some?"
Jay looks into Taecyeon's eyes, those eyes that loved him... and looked away.
"I don't want it."
It goes on for days.
Truthfully, I know what you’re going to say,
But I can feel that it’s not your whole heart; your tears tell me
ii.
A sleepy Taecyeon wakes up to Nichkhun's loud alarm clock at five in the morning, something he picked up while in Tokyo.
Schedules...interviews...what shit music program do i have to host today? Oh right. Inki. Whoopeedoo.
As usual, he goes to Jay and Junho's room, to wake them up (they can never seem to hear alarm clocks). He's about to go in when he realised that Jay's already awake - he's holding up a polaroid picture of all of them, the one when they just debuted.
Jay's favourite picture.
Taecyeon notices the sniffles, the constant caressing of the picture, the tissue paper...
the tears.
Taecyeon counts to twelve, extra slowly, just in case, and goes into the room. "Hyung-ah, we have to go for a schedule. Hurry and get washed up." He pretends he didn't see the tears, the sniffles, the tissues, and leaves.
Ok Taecyeon, you are a fucking coward. You have no guts.
I won’t allow it - your lie of wanting to seperate, look in my eyes and tell me,
It’s not…it’s not the truth
iii.
"I-I can't take this anymore. I have to go."
As soon as he said that, Taecyeon froze.
"H-hyung? Go..go where?" Wooyoung asks, tears glistening in his eyes.
Jay took a deep breath and says it quietly. "Seattle. I want to quit."
Nichkhun laughs nervously.
"Hyung, don't joke. Are you serious? Hyung...hyung!"
"Jay...tell me it isn't true...tell me it's not the truth." Taecyeon finally spoke.
When he saw a single tear cascade down Jay's cheek,
he felt like someone set him on fire.
Don’t say goodbye, I can hear your heart telling me not to let go of your hands,
I can hear your heart; You still just want us
iv.
He stood at Incheon airport, watching Jay walking towards the gates, his back facing them.
This is it.
Wooyoung and Nichkhun were crying, Chansung was just down on the floor, swearing every single swear word he possibly knew in any language, and Junsu and Junho were on the chairs, head buried in their hands.
Taecyeon wanted to run, run after his hyung, telling him everything's going to be fine, just lay low for a while,
but he stood rooted to the ground.
Don’t say goodbye, don’t leave me now, the promises all of us shared...they're
Everything
To
Me
********************
A year later
Junho, Chansung, Wooyoung, Junsu, Nichkhun and Taecyeon stood at the stage, the stage of dreams. Their stage of dreams, since they were trainees, heck, since they were even kids.
It was time for Taecyeon's solo stage. He was going to do a cover of a song that he held so dear to his heart, like his own personal anthem.
He took a deep breath and began to rap the first few lines:
"Don’t say goodbye, you are my everything to me,
My tired days only look for you,
Like a pond which won’t dry, I’ll love you,
You are my love, you are my soul....."
He stopped halfway. He felt like he was going to burst from all the overwhelming emotions the song gave him.
He felt so vulnerable then, so young, so fragile, so weak.
He felt like he was going to break.
All of a sudden, a voice from the wings started rapping his song, from where he stopped.
"Don’t say goodbye, you are the only one for me...."
He could recognise that voice anytime.
***********************
The fans went wild. Some screaming, some crying, some excitedly dialling their friends, he didn't know.
And he didn't care.
When the rest of the members went up on stage, smiling the biggest grins, giving them the biggest hugs ever, that was when Taecyeon started crying for the first time. He didn't stop; he just let all the emotions that he kept in for the past year out. He kept on crying.
It was Jay Park. Park Jaebum. Seductor of Jessica. His leader. His best friend.
And the person he missed most.
"Don’t say goodbye, you are the only one for me,
As if nothing has happened, if today passes,
Let’s not let go of each other, and we’ll make it through,
Cause you are my everything to me,
Cause you are my everything to me "
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a/n: i couldn't not bring jay back, could i? i hope you enjoy reading as much as i enjoyed writing! song lyrics are from my dong bang boys, don't say goodbye by DBSK :) comments and crit are always appreciated. ♥