So I ended up staying awake until 8am. I tried going t bed and it simply wasn't happenin, so I stayed awake online, bought some new tunes and then after seeing it was about daylight decided to go for a morning walk. It was really good for me, the morning sunshine was peaceful and uplifting and I thanked God for those moments, this morning, every ( Read more... )

 I think i have insomnia. 

 I HATE EVERYTHING AND CAPS LOC ISN"T BIG ENOUGH TO EXPRESS HOW I"M FEELING RIGHT NOW. 

Sitting up a little past midnight. My week has been pretty useless, I've been spending most of my time in my room. Tomorrow is supposed to be warm so I'm going to make myself spend time outside. It's just no fun when no one is around to hang out with. My roommate is at work all day, my other friends are at work or moved further away or are away for ( Read more... )

As i said in my facebook status, some days i wish I was a smoker just cause a cigarette would do me good, but one, I promised a friend who does smoke that I would never start, and two, I really feel like thats the worst thing I could put into my body, plus I never want open the possibility of getting addicted to something I put in my body. But ( Read more... )

I'd like to thank Marcy, Shane and Katie for letting me stay at their place for two days, and for getting me to Keri's, and Keri for taking me home, and her roommates for being so hospitable, and Travis for understanding where I'm coming from, and Adam for being as supportive as he can with what he manages to glean from my oftentimes incoherence, ( Read more... )

so I'm flipping out slightly. How is it that I managed to watch my effort and accomplishment of the semester fall away with such an air of indifference? I am so unsure of my footing that I'm getting ready to let the wind take over. This isn't like me, this noncommital attitude that is threatening to take over my mentality. I am smart, I am ( Read more... )

I don't care about people's bullshit, I don't care what they have to say about nothing, I don't want to hear how your day has been, only that you found something new and cool to share; I don't give a fuck what you picked out to wear to class to impress people, only if you picked out the randomest things because you simply felt like it; I don't want ( Read more... )

I am really pleasantly happy right now. Wheeee! This is going to be a great week ( Read more... )

So I got my work done this morning, but i was so effin tired and sick that I decided at 9:15 to skip my first class. I had to go over at 9:30 to rehearse, and I felt aweful, I just wanted to crawl into bed. I promised Meghan I'd be more lively by 2:30. I felt like I was going to either puke or cry, (I did neither) and felt very physically  ( Read more... )