I was sitting here reading my journal, deep in my work when i see flailing out of the corner of my eye. I am at such an angle that i first think i am seeing things but then when i look then look again i see a man having convulsions. He then falls on to the floor much like a fish and I somehow start sprinting to the main desk. I yell at the clerk " ( Read more... )

I feel like im dead reading these journals. I feel like my life is over and no one is around anymore. My uncle is my on ly good influence so i tend to be negative towards him because he tries to cheer me up. I on the other hand just want to be done with school or meet some people. But if I meet some people i have to be positive or i will get ( Read more... )

Man i really feel like i'm from the country here. I know i'm not the usual suspect on the hick charts but man it's so diverse around here. I have made a couple aquaintences but nothing major. Just the what's up blankity blank, not much blankity and so on ( Read more... )

Sometimes being graceful is hard. I still have that built in anti-idiot buzzer in my brain that goes off when a idiot is near. I am frustrated at a member of my family for being an ass almost everyday towards me. He or she always pushes his or her nose in on me to see what i am doing and this and that. Fuck him or her. Everytime some idiot gives me ( Read more... )

Andain - beautiful things is exactly how i feel. No one is waiting for me at the door. No one, not anymore. Did i think things through? I let heather effect how i feel so now i feel like shit. I am so far beyond here. But yet here i am again. Me and my migraine, just chillin together. I have a crazy ass personality and yet again why am i here? Oh ( Read more... )

does rock music promote hate? Its agressive behavior suggests that it is in fact an agressive emotion being extrovated through music and agressive music at that. My hate usually comes out when i play. so does it actually cause more hate or does it cure it? Is it the act of rebellion? Rebellion against parents who are rulers of you. Instead of being ( Read more... )

who am i? This is the question i have recently been asking myself. Why you might ask? Because im indecisive on question, should i rebel? Now to rebel is to make yourself an individual. Meaning apart from your parents, your own person, own personality, and declaring freedom. Now a kid who takes care of himself or herself is well on their way to ( Read more... )

Im thinking of changing my name. I dont know what i'd change it to. But i want to be more me and less them. I dont want to be attached to my father anymore. He asked me tonight "why do you walk around here and not talk to anyone?" i said i have had a very bad day, and if someone speaks to me i speak i havent made an effort not to talk to anyone. ( Read more... )

I wonder am i talking to myself or is some poor bastard reading this? I have been working at the shop everday i can get out there. I love the fuking shop..it's the best thing i've done the whole time i've been up here. I love being there it's so awesome..and just think..thats gonna be my damn job in about two years. Im psyched at fuck to be there, ( Read more... )

Man i fucking hate bitches..i mean other than like one or two chics i know i want to fucking kill the rest ( Read more... )