My thoughts at the end of a three day emotional meltdown.

[lourdesmont]

Sometimes I feel like I am completely and totally alone as I deal with my cancer. Oh, I know that is not totally true as I am surrounded by family and friends and colleagues who love and support me and would do whatever I asked. But in some ways I AM totally alone in this battle for none of you - not my family or my friends or my colleagues - can

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[lisapt]

(((hugs)))

I wish I was closer. You could move in with us for a few days, or as long as you need. I wish I could come stay with you for a bit and do all those things for you. You so deserve to have someone with you to take care of you.

But even so. So much of what you face only you can. I remember feeling that about labor, yes, I have people with me to help, but who the heck is in the center feeling the pain? I so wish I could take some of this stuff for you, but I can't.

I will continue to pray. God is there, right with you, through it all. He can't wait to hold you.

[lourdesmont]

And in the midst of the meltdown, all I wanted was for it to be over. I just wanted to be dead and have an end to all of the struggles.

I don't think that's quite what God wanted, though. Since He put me to sleep when I asked for a sign as to what to do with the loaded insulin syringe...

It was a serious meltdown that was a long time in coming.

Glad it's over.

Now I need a glass of wine.
(-:

[siliconshaman]

*sigh*

Would that I could make it all go away, and spare you the pain and indignities.

[psychoticjedi]

*hugs you tight* Love to you!

[angely78]

I know that I'm very young still and haven't had nearly as much to deal with as some, but I wanted to let you know that I treasure you. You gave joy to a woman you barely knew, just because you could and for that you deserve everything. Who gives presents to strangers and why can't more people be like that? It's something everyone should do once in a while, just to make someone smile. You made me smile, Lisa, and for that I love you.

*hugs*

[darth_firefly]

+hugs muchly+