I don't even care if this post freaks people out...

[love__inabox]

I think it would be so hilarious and typical if everybody read this but nobody wanted to comment because of how awkward this rant is about to be.

Comments

[chhhhhhhhhh]

i think you and rudy don't spend enough time together. when moving out rolls around you guys will be able to spend enough time together that none of this will matter.

my mind starts to wander if i can't see katie for a long time, like if i'm working all week or something, but whenever i see her, i can't even think about other people.

worrying about sexuality is a totally moot point, but it's really hard for people to just accept that they can do whatever the fuck they want. people are afraid of their freedom, because if they express it, society may disapprove. anybody that accuses you of not loving rudy because you're secretly a lesbian is a fucking idiot.

there isn't really anything wrong with wanting a lady again. i sure as hell know that people get attracted to other people when they are in a relationship, especially if theres problems (chris). i see the whole thing as eventually working itself out.

[_hells_angel_]

Trust me, sweetie, I know partially how you feel. I don't really want any other guy, but there's this one girl. God, she's amazing...

But, I'm totally crazily in love with Robert. And, regardless of the fact that I may never get to explore that aspect of my sexuality, I can't just hide it.

I feel guilty when I dream about her...

What can you do about it? Ignore it or accept it. You know that there isn't much you can do about it right now, so what's the point in stressing about it?

[aldreacryslasis]

I think girls go through this type of phase more than we like to admit. I went through something of the samesort a while back. lol you can always be with me and my hot bod ^_~ I'm not ridiculin you just makin a odd joke. Anyways seriously if you want to talk about this to me, dunno why you would since I'm so far away, but yeah just call my cell the number's on myspace.

[love__inabox]

of course i would call you

it doesn't matter that you're far away :)

[love__inabox]

thanks you guys

i'm surprised that i'm actually not alone on this one!

i guess i just felt awkward saying it but now that everyone's like admitted they felt it too i'm all comfortable about it

i feel a lot better now :)

[wise1fool3]

Here's the thing: I don't think I can really offer you any advice since I'm not around you much anymore, nor can I identify with your struggle. However, I would feel like a jerk if I didn't comment when you're going through such a serious issue- and I think that if I lay claim to being a true friend of yours (as I consider you one of my few), I'll do what I can. But the most I feel that I can do is offer you a support shoulder and hope that you make it through this struggle okay.

That said, I hope you're feeling better now.

P.S. I don't think you should feel like you're being unfair to Rudy- I think your love for him is definitely clear.

[love__inabox]

aw thanks seth! :) i wish you were in town for my 18th birthday! i miss you!