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i just read an awesome journal entry... someone who is exactly like me... have any of you ever wanted to go to a cemetary? like, just to hang out? or think, or write, or dream, or anything? haven't any of you? not a pretty one in the sun, but a dark damp one on a rainy day... under the shelter of a tree?... i have... wanted to anyway. when i can drive, i'm gonna take my car up to some old cemetary all out by itself, that no one's ever heard of or been to. where i can be all by myself just to be alone and do nothing. i would love that. where you can be surrounded by people and not have a one of them judge you. that would be nice. no one to say, hey, i think you're a fake when you're being yourself. i would like to not be judged. have any of you ever wondered why you liked the rain? for those of you that do? do you know why? i think i might know why i love the rain. i think i love the rain because it usually means that the skies are grey. i love it when they turn that stormy colour. like night during the day if that makes sense. why would someone enjoy to go to a graveyard i wonder... i don't really know why i would like to go to a graveyard. all i have are theories. and those theories could even be lies, and i wouldn't even know it because i think it's the truth, or at least some version of the truth... but then, anything could be a version of the truth... even a completely humungous lie... that's someone's version of the truth... i'm sorry that i babble sometimes, but i'm like that. and i love to talk in chains... like, i'll start talking about how i want to dye my hair a very deep shade of blue, or black, or neon blue or something like that, then suddenly go on about the most recent movie i've seen and what i thot about it. here's the chain: first thinking about blue, the ocean is blue, shark's live in the ocean, there's a movie called jaws that's basically about a shark*and another one called shark tales*, and then that relates to movies i've seen, which would obviously relate to what i thot about a movie i've recently seen or w/e... the chains are always logical, but since they're only going on in my head, when i'm talking about dying my hair blue then talking about my favorite movie, it's a little difficult for people to realize that it's not that i'm random, but that the chain in my head isn't one that they know... how confusing... just like how i started off talking about how i would like to go to a cemetary when i got older... somehow i started talking about how i'm not random... i'm very good at weaving these kind of chains... lol... i'm rather bored now... i think i may go... i guess that's all... i don't believe i have anything else to say... um... yeh... bye then.... ^_^
randey