x....I hate valentines day, it makes me think....x

[love_lost87]

When is it time to give up, give up on what I used to have and face that I don't have it anymore. When is it time to face reality that I am alone, and all I can do it grasp it with faith to believe that I will be able to trust another again, be able to open myself up to another again, to want to be wanted by another for more than just one night.

Comments

[weasel_seeker]

It's not wrong at all, Shann. I totally get exactly what you mean.

"I'm scared to depend on someone other than myself and a beer in my hand."

That - that's really easy to do. And it's far more comfortable to be lonely but independent than to force yourself to take a step towards something a bit more chancey. I think at some point everyone feels like that. It's not wrong, it's not bad, it's just the state that you're in...

I'm back in Ottawa from the 18th (Saturday) of February until the Friday or so...We should hang out.

[love_lost87]

Yea we should most def. hang out when you come back. its too bad you wont be here for my birthday.. gimme a call when you are back in town 816-7025

--Shann