title: regret
author: love_teddies
rating: nc-17
notes: thanks again to leifang666 for helping out.
The YFC tour was over now and Gackt had returned to Tokyo. Within this period, after that night with Kamijo, Gackt was confused and frequently seeked comfort from You. This had pretty much made the guitarist’s hopes for becoming Gackt’s one and only higher. He even offered to move back in with Gackt but the singer declined because his sister and her kids are staying with him now.
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It was around 2am when Kamijo's phone went off. He uttered a few curses as he reluctantly reached for his mobile. He swears he is going to tell off whoever that is on the line, the consequence for disturbing his beauty sleep.
“Hello, if there is nothing important call tomorrow” he answered while rubbing his eyes.
“Kamijo-kun, it’s Gackt, sorry to wake you, I didn’t think that you’d be asleep. I’ll call some other time.” Gackt replied although he is desperate to find the answer to all the confusion he'd been experiencing. When he couldn’t sleep he had decided to call the other but clearly that had been a mistake, it was too late to call now.
“No, no Gackt-san I don’t mean it, I'm just tired. I’m willing to talk to you whenever and wherever. “ Kamijo quickly answered. He’s been waiting all this time for the soloist to call him.
“Kamijo-kun, I can’t sleep now so can I come over if it doesn't.....”
“Of course you can. When will you arrive?” Kamijo asked, so delighted by all of this that his sleepiness is gone.
“In about 20 minutes.”
“Ok. See you in 20 minute’s then” Kamijo said and Gackt rung up.
True to his words, Gackt arrive at Kamijo’s place on the dot. Kamijo has already changed from his pyjamas to a black t-shirt and tight fitting white pants. He predicted what Gackt wanted from him. When Kamijo opened the door for the other, he was greeted into a hug by Gackt. He manages to break free only to find Gackt’s lips on his, and accepted it.
“Why don’t we bring this to your room” Gackt whispered to Kamijo’s ears while nibbling making the blond shiver. Kamijo lead Gackt to his room never breaking apart from the other, their clothes one by one thrown onto the floor along the way. He longed for this after the night with the older man.
Gackt pined the blond on the bed and their kissed intensified. Both men got hungrier with time. Kamijo put his hand over the other’s waist and hold him tightly. He wants the kiss to be forever but his needs overpowered that. Soon the table turned and Kamijo is on Gackt straddling him.
Kamijo then starts licking Gackt manhood and later take in the length, making Gackt moan his name. He continues sucking and Gackt place his hand on Kamijo’s head pushing his length deeper in, letting Kamijo deep throat him. Kamjo starts to hum and the vibration makes Gackt even more desperate.
Gackt pulls Kamijo back, gesturing to lie on his back. Kamijo did as told and now Gackt is on top of him kissing and biting on his neck. Gackt slowly went lower, stopping at the blonds harden nipples to play with it before moving lower. One of his hands went ravishing the bedside drawers, searching for lube. Once he found it, he squeeze of the liquid on to his fingers and enters them one by one into Kamijo. When he deemed the blond well prepared, he enters Kamjo and he moves before the other is comfortable, making Kamijo screaming for his life. But as soon as Gackt hit his sweet spot, Kamijo moans the taller man’s name, moving his hips wanting more. Soon Kamijo is on the edge but he tries to hold in as he doesn’t want this to end anytime now but Gackt stroking him in time with his thrust isn’t helping and he came seconds after that. Gackt continues thrusting for a while before his release.
When Gackt gain his consciousness, he saw Kamijo still shaking. He pulls some tissues to wipe both of them clean before returning to collect his clothes.
“Don’t leave, please” Kamijo suddenly said looking at Gackt. Tears started to form on his eyes. “Please stay” he begged again
Gackt’s heart softens and he went to Kamijo. It had been such a long time since he felt this feeling but he couldn’t question it as he is so exhausted. Kamijo place his arms on Gackt, nudging Gackt’s neck before drifting off to sleep. “Sorry” Gackt said. He didn’t know why he said that but that was the only that he can manage to say.