it's fall
i've fallen 
and i'm falling

y o u r   h e a r t   f e l t   g o o d
it was drippin pitch and made of wood
and your hands and knees felt cold and wet on the grass to me

you're ever welcome with me any time you like
let's drive to the countryside, leave behind some green-eyed look-a-likes
so no one gets worried, no

i'm happy.

hmmmmmm lets see how this goes :)

 i want what you have. all of you.

 sometimes i wonder
if i could have been her,
and if we could have been as happy
as you are with her. 

 how can it be, we were so secure?

when nothing you ever planned out ever turned out the way you planned

 "if i had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense.
Nothing would be what is is, because everything would be what it isn't.
And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be.
And what it wouldn't be, it would."

    im not sure why, but the past few months ive been consumed with family issues. ive just been thinking about them so much more then i usually do. my grandma is getting so much worse and its so hard to see her sometimes. she cant do anything on her own and i just feel like there is no point in being alive if you cant do anything for yourself. i ( Read more... )