I suppose it is better said than not, better to have been through it and deal with the consequences rather than not having it at all. It felt different than just another trial and error, but what do i know ( Read more... )

i feel like i should have a lot to say, but every time i make the attempt to take a few moments to process what's happened...nothing comes out. once again, i threw myself entirely into something that's about as fleeting as a flame in a wind storm. i can tell myself as many as i'd like, it's well worth all the pain for all those moments of happiness ( Read more... )

sometimes i take this trip down nostalgia lane. it's overwhelming how much time has passed. it's overwhelming to think of all the major details of the past that are so minor now. there was a moment in time when feelings were so strong you couldn't help but be succumbed to it. why is it that in youth, everything is felt with such a magnitude. why is ( Read more... )

there's always a part of me that constantly feels defeated about where i'm headed and who i am. it's scary to be so lost after so many years. after all this time, so many years lived, i still don't feel as though i belong anywhere. i'm just so tired of feeling so misplaced. i don't want to move from house to house, body to body. for once, i just ( Read more... )

this is the thing here. everywhere i look and every second of my day, i'm surrounded by so many people who are so sure of where they are and what they're doing. engagement every other day, baby announcement the days in between, can't forget the marriages and white picket fence. while i'm just sitting here with by my lonesome, listening to the same ( Read more... )

sometimes it's okay to let yourself wallow a little, even if the reasoning is self-inflicted. when everything seems to take way more effort than i can muster up, even breathing seems to take a heavier toll than usual. it's hard to give so much of myself away again and again, it's a constant repeated mistake. it's just another process, i have to ( Read more... )

The thing about putting yourself out there without a casting line is that you risk sinking and drowning. There isn't anyone else to blame but yourself.

I'm not sure how many nights I can go through not sleeping, slightly obsessing over something so intangible, when is enough enough? After all, I'm doing this to myself. I'm aching for change, but I'm too hesitant to make the steps to make it happen. Should I be so forward? Or am I really just so delusional to hold on to something so out of my grasp ( Read more... )

sometimes a good cry to a few songs can remind yourself that you aren't as numb as you may think.

i really miss feeling young and invincible. how do i get that back?? i know i'm far from old, but i feel as though i'm just stuck on a merry-go-round of apathy.

I'll admit to certain things, it's hard for me to make the distinction between settling versus comfortably happy. It becomes most a chore to question yourself about the details. I'm almost 27 without a clue, that hill is looking mighty scary ( Read more... )