find your happy beginning

[loveclouds]

find your happy beginning
changmin-centric, implied yunho/changmin
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the anticlimactic affair of changmin's suicide.

for oannapantso &hearts :3! a part of suicide!verse and its sort of!prequel. read those first to avoid spoilers :P. and obvious warning: this entire fic is about suicide, rofl.

Comments

[yuukihitohira]

UGHHHH OMGG. I absolutely love this verse ;________; so to see another story add to it is just zslkjhlksjdhflaskjdfh<3333 And Changmin ;___; my heart :( But it's so true to say that even if there's nothing wrong with your life, if things are good, it doesn't necessarily mean that you are happy :(( OH MIN ;_;<3

[loveclouds]

:)))) I LOVE THIS VERSE TOO! too bad there's nothing to write for it anymore LOL. awww it's so much fun. D:

and i know. people dismiss suicide too easily. ;_; ♥

[reallycorking]

slkdjflaksdjflsadkj ugh I wasn't sure what to expect of this but turns out I LOVE IT :( :( :( It's rather funny and sweet for a suicide fic, sob. How do you do it. T_T

[loveclouds]

LOL have you seen the movie wristcutters? :) it's really funny and so sweet and completely about suicide hahaha and that's the movie i'm basing the entire verse on. XD so, credit goes to the movie, i guess. :P

[hoyah]

;_; homg yuxi you make me incoherent

[loveclouds]

awww maiii :3 ♥

[hoyah]

it's true lol i can't even find appropriate words to respond to your fics anymore

[loveclouds]

eeeee hahahahahaha mai it's so early and i'm like half asleep and my face is like :)))))))))))))))) ilu ♥

[jinsung]

When I read the story that preceded this prequel, I was actually wondering what had happened with Changmin. This answer is an interesting one, but I noticed that in the previous fic he had appeared near catatonic and frigid, while here he's so normal. Is there an explanation for that? Or is it just that after death he just feels perfectly comfortable with manifesting his internal problems outwardly?

Thanks for writing this, I really enjoyed it.

[loveclouds]

i hope he didn't appear near catatonic because that certainly wasn't what i was intending LOLOL. since changmin's willingly removed himself from essentially feeling any emotion in his life (since he doesn't feel like he belongs, or it's better to not feel at all in order to not get hurt, etc. and what have you), it carries over to his death, although now he does feel like he fits a little better. so in death, with a blast from the past from the kindness of a stranger named yunho, that's why he feels so magnetized and wary but he can't help but live out what he was actually searching for/craving for in the life he ended so early. consider it the date yunho never got to take changmin on. ;)

i hope that answered your question in at least some way LOL :DDDD thanks for reading! :3

[jinsung]

Thanks for answering my question. I guess this calls for yet another re-read of the sequel! :D

[jinsung]

like I even needed a reason to go do it. you wouldn't believe how many times I've gone over that one.

[beatinlove]

suicide!verse, i'm so happy ;0; XD

snarky!min is the best and omg they met in the ~real world~ lol dies I loved it so much! ♥

[loveclouds]

:'DDDDDDD i haven't seen you in so long!! :')))) ♥ :3333

lol dies yeah, i was planning on doing something like that because really, at the oddest times, you receive such kindness from strangers. and who would be kinder and stranger than yunho?! XDDDD

♥ :3