it feels like it has been forever since i posted anything here. i wish it really has been a long time. but it hasn't. i just spend my days wandering and wondering what it is like if i had friends, so many that half my days will be filled with their attention and my attention on them, laughing crying sneezing (now that's random) running spinning ( Read more... )

What would it be like if we are in a world where we can choose to die whenever we want, and believe it or not, live as long as we choose to stay alive?

life-defying. me.

almost reaching 200 entries. wow. how many of those are happy posts? probably pretty little. but that's okay. this is my place of solace after all. my heart ( Read more... )

I. am. a. failure.

sie xin yi, creating creating creating messes since 1991. clearing since forever. still clearing. still failing. fuck.

Weird thoughts, maybe. But I was like thinking, my dong bang boys are really like the xxxholic characters. not in personalities (hell, they're individuals, damnit) but how their lives ended up just... being. yoosujae are like syaoran, fae and kurogane, destined (cursed?) to travel and roam forever, always just missing the chance (does it exist?) to ( Read more... )

i’ll always remember, i hope you know.
i really wish you do.,,,
i miss you, my boys. and i wish you will be full again....
i'll never stop wishing.

Brand New ; Soco Amaretto Lime
http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&v=RKBRdjkYTYE

There is so much I don't see, didn't see, can't see. What the fuck is wrong with me!

Just think that I'm damn blind. Always thinking that I get along with ppl jiu okay le, but at the end of the day everyone else is super close to each other and im just... not there.

I have no time no right to angst right now. But i cant hold it back anymore....

I love ( Read more... )

Even when I'm alone, I can still love life.
But... it still gets difficult, cause the negative thoughts still rise.

Things I'm glad I've done in my twenty years of living, things I'm not proud of, the things I still wanna do.

own stuff toys that i love to bits
lost >20 friends
like <5 boys
LOVE 5 boys, my boys, the dong bang boys :)
wondered about love
cried about love
watch movie in the 2nd row
received valentines gifts of gratitude & friendship
cried and felt human ( Read more... )

Happy birthday to myself, in advance :) it's 12.00am now.