I'm so behind on this thing. I have many things to update about, specifically the Bleeding Through show in St. Petersburg, Fl where my friend Trent and I went shopping with Marta a few hours before the show. More details on that later ( Read more... )

Oh, I almost forgot! I have new pics up over at myspace.

http://www.myspace.com/deathiseventual

So, I just heard the new Dissection song, Starless Aeon (or something like that). I did not know they were changing to melodic death metal. They sound like old In Flames and At the Gates now.

I'm really worried right now, but there's so much shit to go into that I'm NOT going to go into it right now. We do not know what tomorrow holds and when one shall return from the grave. We'll just keep this thing between Devin, Trent and myself.

I forgot how much I love David Bowie. The man needs to tour.

Unfortunately I have to wear my new bots to work today as the shoe strings on my Docs broke. I'll just have to be careful not to scuff them up. I also need to go buy some new strings after work so I don't have to wear these monster boots to work again.

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Where the fuck is happiness when I need it the most?

I looked all over Tampa thus far and was unable to find my boots, but the third mall I checked had them. I had a 15% off card so these boots only cost me $69.11 with tax. That's cheaper than any previous pairs of Doc's I bought ( Read more... )

So, you're still reading this journal I see. That last post had NOTHING to do with you. You know good and damn well that I've been suicidal in the past. I was before I met you and I still am. Controlling feelings of worthlessness isn't exactly something I can do. No, I didn't read your entry because if you can recall, your journal is friends' only ( Read more... )

"Sometimes it feels it would be better for you all
if I would cease to exist or was never born at all."

I tried to be nice to you last night but you were so fucking rude and so goddamned snotty when I asked you something. Thanks for making me look like an idiot. Thanks for being too important to care.

The show tonight was fucking amazing. I'll make a full update on it soon with pics to boot. I met all of Bleeding Through (once again) and Brian even said he could get Trent and I backstage passes to the show in Tampa at The Masquerade on March 23rd. FUCKING KILLER!

On the other hand.....

I'm sick of fucking mind games. I'm sick of trying. I don't ( Read more... )