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[loveisanitemare]

He lied to me. Quite simply, when none of the emails worked, I actually looked at the postmaster's email thingy, and it gave a link to Stanford's "Who's Who", and I typed in his name to get the email address. There is no Max Pearson at Stanford. Nor is there anyone with a name close. Which means he lied either about his name, or the school. I’d

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[daimyofury]

Mmkay, I want to preface this by saying that I just want whats best for you in the end. It might seem like I'm being an asshole to you about all this, but if you listen to me, then it will be easier in the end

[loveisanitemare]

I never ASKED for either of your opinions. I told you something, and you gave them to me. But you obviously don't care. I am not blind to the possibilities. I see them all, I just don't want to face them yet. I never said I wouldn't love anyone else. I know that I will. I just don't want to, not at this point. Am I being overly optimistic? No, I don't believe I am. I am trying this because I want to find him, to at least have a say in what happened. But being optimistic? No, definately not. I try to fool myself into thinking he will respond. But if you read this entry, you would realize that he lied and doesn't go to Stanford. Therefore, all the emails to him at Stanford came back to me. If you remember, the emails I tried to send to him in the beginning came back to me also, because he changed his email.
You say you want what is best for me. My advice for you on that is don't try to help me anymore. I don't want to hear it. I thought you had changed, but you didn't. You're still the same ass I met two years ago.

[daimyofury]

When I said overly optimistic, I was talking about how you thoroughly thought out what would happen, where he would come home from work, and what your house setup would be, and how many kids you would have, and stuff like that. To think that you would spend the rest of your life with someone that you talk to online mostly, and is your first real boyfriend, is utterly ridiculous. If you had been going out for a year, that's one thing. But how long was it? A few months

[lilfroggie872]

Hey Lauren...

Josh is right, and I do have to agree with him. Well, not the ending the friendship part cuz I don't wanna do that, but the rest of it is.

He basically said everything I didn't cuz I knew you didn't wanna hear it so I kept my mouth shut. I know it hurts, you're not the only one who has been dumped before and you're gonna love other people.

Max is as asshole for what he did, I know that and I think everyone else does. But there is a time that you have to look past it and get over it, he's not worth being so upset over.

He's just a guy, honey.

~Jess~

[anonymous]

you really need to shut up about this kid. he doesn't like you. get over it. ya harsh. but hey it happens to all of us. and whining about it won't make it any better. there hasn't been a single entry in this thing for the past several months that didn't go something like "max max max i love max i miss max max max max". seriously. shut. the. fuck. up.

[anonymous]

Thats too much. Leave her alone. Its how she feels.

[loveisanitemare]

Thanks.