"It sucks so much worse to be in need of somebody as opposed to being in need of anybody"
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Just looking at this quote makes me think, why did i even think about u. in the first place. Why didnt i just not give u a chance.

Fuck Fuck Fuck, Why do u Have to care about ur parents so? Why cant u just decide for urself to be happy regardless of their thoughts. Do u think they deserve to be happy even with this. Am I happy with this? ARE U HAPPY WITH THIS? thats the only question that matters. If that question can be answered honestly without consideration of external ( Read more... )

Yay we are back together, whatever that means. JK. I love u so much. I just wish u didnt put me through such things again.

why do i have to scrutinize my thoughts so. EWhy cant i just let it fklow like an unstemmed tide, rushing forth, engulfing all in its path. This wawy things wont stay cooped up in my mind. There are times im glad i dont tell it all but now i ust wanna talk
say everyting on my mind. But its not possible

Im talking to Joe. And u keep making me think bad of him. everytime i tlk to him, i just keep remembering the way u thought he was so cute and the way u were looking at him. I guess this is immature but i dont givva fuck right about now.

Crickets, theyve always lulled me to sleep ever since i was a little kid. Now thinking about u makes it impossible for me to sleep when i want to. Ive always been able to sleep at a seconds notice, but now icant lay down without thinking about u. I hate the fact that we have to go through this. I cant help feeling that if we were still together we ( Read more... )

I just had to update after soccer game. I miss being able to complain to u about everything. About how coach doesnt let me play. About how biased he is. Everything. I hope u make ur decisions soon cause i cant make mine

Current Mood: pissy
Current Music: Crickets outside

Today in Physics I felt so aakward imagining u staring at my back. Thinking wbout what u and mekhala would be talking about. Could it be good could it be bad. I see im looking for possible scapegotes. Mekhela, Katilyn, anybody. But Katilyn does need to mind her own business

Maybe it was a bad idea to start this Journal. It ixs liable to get read by anyone with any amount of insight. Im gonna consider deleting this Jounral

U told me its over. Im so confused. Im not hurt but im extremely bothered. This feeling of helpnessness is unwarranted. A few minutes before our conversation, Robert told me about how im not romantic, or sensitive and how im too attatched. I thought this was funny coming from robert who is attatched to brittney buti figured it to be true realizing ( Read more... )