Realization

[lovejeggen]

I've realized what has made me sad. It wasn't losing Jill, but trying to give up and relinquish any hope for the future. I now see that Jill needs her space, and I respect that, but I am not giving up. While I'm at college, I want Jill to be the happiest she can be, and if she finds someone who makes me look like a slug comparatively, then so be it

Comments

[miripanda]

You sound just like Jesse. When we had our..difficulty, that's exactly how he talked. I'm sorry you've been going through unhappy stuff, but it makes me feel very reassured that there's more than one good guy out there who thinks with his heart.

But seriously. Jesse said exactly those things. And won me back. Don't give up -- until you feel you've done the best you can do, or your goals change.

*hug*

[timewarpfan]

I believe what happened was that essentially miranda got bored with me not being there and had to find someone else to fill the gap. It was one of the most miserable times in my life, that week almost exactly two years ago this month. But in a way it was very good for me and forced me to try to be independent again and show me that I could be happy without Miranda. Because there was and still is the chance, despite anything we might plan, that Miranda and I will not be together.

Long distance relationships are tough. We'll talk later.