if the choice were mine to make

[lovelessredhope]

I am so very depressed right now
almost anything and everything will trigger my depression to come out
I've been doing so well
but now I'm going into a depressive dive again
all cuz of this
WHY?
why am I always just the 'friend'?
why don't guys like me?
why does every little thing make me depressed?
why why why?!?!
I really hate this
I just want to lay in bed

Comments

[anonymous]

smile and be happy.

[psycho_micah]

you are beautiful in so many ways - God has a perfect person for you. And you might not know them today. You might not know them in 20 years

and so it goes....the tradition continues

[aluminummonkey]

It's your big, bad sister again. Let me tell you something I have learned along the way

[musical_soul]

Lisa, I know what you're going through. I do, I've been there before. Remember what I said about Ryan? I was in love with him and he did the same thing to me, only he was infatuated with my best friend. Imagine how that made me feel. I felt like I wasn't good enough and I couldn't figure out why. But you know what I eventually realized, it was his loss not mine. After all, why would you want to be with someone who can't see you for the wonderful person you are. And you Lisa, you are a wonderful person. You may not realize it, but it's true. Just remember, you don't need a guy to make you feel complete. Especially not one who isn't going to appreciate you for the wonderful person you are. And just remember you are only 16 and you have a whole lifetime to find the right guy. (And yes, I have to tell myself this everyday). Most high school relationships are bullshit anyway. And just remember, if he doesn't like you as anything more than a friend now, well, he's not worth it and he's the one losing out on something great... not you.

Jess