Nicole just called me with some awesome news. Her step mom came through and got us suite tickets to the Taste of Chaos tour. So that is where the two of us are going to be tomorrow night. I'm sooooo fucking excited, just not about the tour but seeing Nic as well. I haven't seen her since May of last year after all the drama went down at school and ( Read more... )

Well, I'm back from my aunt's house ( Read more... )

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1.) Fix yourself before you fix broken relationships...How do you expect something broken to fix another broken thing ( Read more... )

Oh man what I fucking day I have had. I have been going non stop since 3 am and I didn't eve fall asleep until 1 am last night. I worked from 5am to 1pm at the gym, then 2pm to 7pm at hollywood. You do the math. My feet are sore, my back hurts, my eyelids are very heavy, but I don't feel sleepy. I'm still in my hollywood uniform for christ sakes ( Read more... )

I'm plotting and planning.
I'm going to write it down, so I don't forget.
I'm the only person who can stop this.
I'm going to dive in head first.

today was my due date.
i was supposed to be a mother today....but i'm not
i should be holding little Tyler/Eden in my arms...but i'm not
it's bitter sweet
i know i made the right decision
but my heart aches so badly
we didn't love each other anymore...we still don't

I re-ordered my contacts but this time I got colored ones instead of clear ones. Do they make a differance?


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Last friday, I went to see my doctor to get back on adderall. I've been off it for almost 9 months. But I want to get back on it because 1. It helps me lose weight and I want faster results than working out, 2. It helps me focus better, so I don't get all spacey at work, and 3. I get a lot of cleaning and house work done when I'm on it ( Read more... )