i feel like i have no one to talk to besides megan but i feel bad always talking to her about how i feel shitty and that it doesnt help that shes in boston. she shouldnt have to hear that, she knows it sucks.

i feel like i care more about everyone then they care about me, with the exception of megan.
i feel like i dont make a difference in anything.
i feel that saying all of this is pointless.

iv been wishing we didnt lose touch lately.

im going to sarasota this weekend, saturday night im staying in a hotel room by myself and its going to be boring someone/people come hang out with me.

i feel like a waste of life again.

in other news go to myspace.com/mitchpasterphotograhy and add me.

after this weekend, well more specifically the shows on saturday, coalesce, comadre and ampere i sort of feel good about hardcore again, there are still bands doing it the way its supposed to be and there are still people that care more about the music and what hardcore/punk really means then showing up to shows to try to be the toughest kid there ( Read more... )

it bothers me that people are friends with people that they know suck. they all say that they are cool to me or whatever, but if people like hitler were cool to you would you still be friends with them? its a bit of an exaggeration but i dont know how else to make my point ( Read more... )

so a few months ago i took some pictures of a doctor for my mom and now they are being used in an ad for the doctors office in a magazine, so technically im a published photographer and i made some money from it so i guess that makes me a professional published photographer which is really fucking cool. lacrosse started which is also really cool. i ( Read more... )

there is nothing cool to take pictures of here ( Read more... )

im glad im not who i was a year ago. iv evolved, it sucks that relationships iv had with people have changed. my group of friends isnt as big, but im just as happy for the most part. i feel more adult now them i ever have. shit still bothers me, including the way people act or what they say with in my group of friends but it doesnt matter so i keep ( Read more... )