I'm really running the risk of sounding way too melodramatic here tonight, but wow. It hurts like a bitch. Feels like I'm always playing out this role that I tried the hardest to avoid.

Apart from the wedding of a close friend that I just attended hours ago, this week has been nothing but full of shit and really fucked up. I really want out. Is it okay if I'm not in the mood to celebrate?

Hopelessly alone tonight.

So I came back to school on a Friday when I had no lessons, just to have a meeting with a professor that lasted all of... 10 minutes. I know I am really taking on way more than I can handle, but I keep telling myself that if they can do it I can do it too! (and all of this while forgetting that that's what makes them >4.5 and not me ( Read more... )

What a waste of time and effort.

"What's terrible is to pretend that the second-rate is first-rate,
that you don't need love when you do
that you like your work when you know quite well you're capable of better."
- Doris Lessing
This feels like a sour plum got stuck in my throat. Ouch.
Save us sos.

In life there is only one certainty, but yet we avoid it, we try not to think about it, we work around it, we close our eyes and clench our fists and hope against hope that it will not happen to us or the people around us, not today, not tonight. But things go wrong, plans don't always materialise, and hearts get broken. Whatever it is, everything ( Read more... )

Hi friends, this whole California summer school thing is driving me insane, because things are not done, packing is a mess, the weather there scares me, and best of all, I'm leaving this Sunday. And me being me, I know that even before we end our first week there I'd already be homesick and missing baobao and mum-style milo and porridge... and ( Read more... )

First paper in 3 days' time, but all I want to do right now is to drink my milk and pretend there's no exams. Eat my bread and pretend there's no exams. Talk to KimGi and pretend there's no exams.
Sigh.

On a sidenote, I booked my tix to SFO. :( :(

Extracted all four of my wisdom teeth today... And yes it hurts like a mother bitch. But the staff at the hospital were all so nice though and I think i might just be in love with my nurse who fed me apple juice and sang songs to me (HAHA). I almost requested for her to stroke my hair ( Read more... )

The unit upstairs is having major FML style renovation works. How my mum manages to stay home all day without any complaints is beyond me.


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