So, I have been trying to get this boy off my mind but it has not worked. At first I thought I was happy to have him out of my life and I kept thinking how better it was, but when I really thought about it I was thinking about him whenever I was happy.  I miss talking to him and not knowing if he was going to tease me for what I said or if he'd be ( Read more... )

wow i havnt posted a blog in 64 weeks. pretty crazy and a lot has gone on since then. today is the last day of my life that i will be 15 years old. i've always looked at 16 year olds as a little more grown up, but i dont feel a little more grown up at all. i need a job. better yet i need money. i guess i want to work but i kind of dont all at once.

my life has been slowly but surely changing and i have to say that it's not that bad. I used to be afraid of change, but all in all it's not that bad. Life has it's ups and downs but you get over it. My dad isn't taking my kidney and is in turn going to colombia to get a kidney...Thus proving that i'm not good enough once again. Things have changed ( Read more... )

i'm exhausted always but right when i fall asleep it's time to wake up i feel sad always and never want to get out of bed i cant wait til wednesday but i dont want sunday to come it's going to be the most awkward night of my life i mean going home for the first time in a month....i feel tears coming on but they refuse to come out it's kind of ( Read more... )

i used to care if ppl read my lj but now i kinda like that no one reads it cuz it's like my own personal place to talk and get things out...i find myself acting weird and i have not been myself lately and i feel no pitty for my dad anymore and i dont want to give him my kidney for the same reasons like i wanted to give it to him to be accepted by ( Read more... )

haven't been on in a while but ya this is what's been goin on i got into a fight wit my dad so from feb 17th - feb 21 i lived with danae then i've been at jackie's since feb 21st but i think i'm going home on sunday the 19th of march but ya....danae's birthday is on the 22 yay my bestestest friend will be 15

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i kinda wrote three new poems...well i wrote this poem then i decided to make it abstract but ya...enjoy i guess ( Read more... )

havent updated i a while but i wrote some poems so here they are if you wanna read them ( Read more... )