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[lovelylotta]

I am having a hard time with being in a constant state of want

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[jessicaeve]

I think of you often.

If there's anything I can offer (support, listening, woo-woo shit or practical stuff like a place to get away or ... whatever), it is yours.

~J

[lovelylotta]

Thanks Jess. I think of you too.

(And in fact, I was pretty disappointed to see you weren't blogging the debate. I have come to look forward to it!)

[lorihollet]

I'm just sorry you're hurting. Let me know if you want to talk. I would offer to give you a hug and get you stoned, but I'm all the way here in New York.

Have you read "The Kid" by Dan Savage? I can't decide if it would be a good book to recommend or a bad book to recommend, but at least it's funny.

[lovelylotta]

You gave that book to me for my birthday many years back! Funny, I just got Jeff started on it. I found it totally helpful but actually made me pretty resistant to the adoption process.

Thanks. It is always great to hear from you!

[lorihollet]

It is completely weird that I gave that to you. I have no memory of it. I wasn't even trying to suggest it as a "have you considered adoption" hint, but because it just offers a different (and often light hearted) perspective on wanting children.

Do you remember the scene when they go to the adoption classes and the first class is called something like, "mourning our fertility" or something? And Dan's boyfriend leans over and asks, "Do you think we could have skipped this one?" Well, though I laughed when I read it, it also made me realize that I wouldn't be able to skip that class, because it makes me sad to think that I won't be able to have children that are the biological children of me and my sweetheart. At the time, said sweetheart was Nick. Now it's Anahí, but it still sucks. And there's nothing I can do about it.

So, although it's a very different set of issues/challenges/concerns/disappointments, I'm still sorry it's shitty, because it is.

[semperfey]

i'm sorry you're in pain.

but you seem to be having an easy time at least saying it. and that's something.

take care.

[zanyassmask]

I dont guess you're awake now....?

[d_k]

I know I never see you anymore, but I'm really sorry to hear about this - another friend of mine has been going through a similar experience for a few years now. I wish I could help. I'm thinking of you.
xo