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[lovemedeath]

it's my birthday. I'm drunk. I'm 20 years old today and I am supposed to be a woman now. Matt made me a woman and I no longer speak to him. My body is punishing me for abandoning the only man I've ever had any desire for. I can no longer become wet in bed, I can not enjoy sex, no matter how hard I try. I fucked the future corporal again today. I

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[kateywaslike]

that is the only thing i want lately.

i am not even good enough for someone to have sex with me or for me to go down on them. i feel as though i am turning more and more into myself. i hate where i am. i hate being married. i love jaime so so so so much. but everything is hurting me right now. everything is making me less.

[lovemedeath]

I suppose we're dealing with almost exact opposite situations. I know my husband loves me ridiculously, I know that most men desire me; but I feel like a sexual object, like it's all I'll ever be, it's the only thing I'm any good for, and the saddest part is, since I met matt I can't bring myself to enjoy sex with anyone else. I am just tired and disgusted.

You are good enough. You know what I think of the situation, and you also know I support the effort you're putting into saving your marriage. You don't know how much I love you dear, so very much.

[kateywaslike]

i wish we were closer, physically.

[lovemedeath]

so do I dear.