10 songs - 10 stories.
I'm definitely not a writer, I've attempted fanfic before, but I felt as though it wasn't that great, but this seemed interesting so I wanted to try it. I kind of didn't really go with the lyrics or the title a few times, but hopefully they still fit with the song some how :P I figured I'd give it a shot, so hopefully it's not horrible!
Summary:
1. Pick a character, pairing, or fandom you like.
2. Turn on your music player and put it on random/shuffle.
3. Write a drabble or short story related to each song that plays.
You only have the time frame of the song to finish the drabble or short story
You start when the song starts, and stop when it's over. No lingering afterwards!
4. Do ten of these, then post them.
Here it goes... I don't know how it will turn out but.. I'll try!
1. The City Is A Drag - Hawksley Workman (Callie)
...I can't even count the number of times I've driven these streets, spent a night drinking at Joe's or taken a walk, but they haven't felt the same as they used to. I loved living in Seattle, I loved being part of the whole atmosphere, but without you it feels horrible. The only way I can think of putting it is that I'm living, but not existing.
I miss you Erica, and every part of my life is different without you. Every time I have a horrible day at work, I pick up my cellphone and enter your number, but never dial. I miss having my best friend to talk to about the good and the bad. My life isn't complete without you. There's this empty feeling that consumes me, and I can't enjoy the small things like taking a walk, because it hurts too much to think about how I'm here in Seattle, and you're in New York. You've started a new life, and I can't move past that one day outside the hospital... the last time I saw you...
In short, I miss you. That's all I can say. I don't know what you'll think of this letter, but I had to do something, I couldn't stand living without you knowing how I was feeling.
I'm so sorry,
Callie.
2. Smile Like You Mean It- The Killers. (Erica)
"You are Erica Hahn. You're not scared of anything. You can do this," I try to encourage myself, but it's not working. I am scared, and of something so simple. "Come on, it's just your typical 'meet the parents' dinner. So what if it's Mr. and Mrs. Torres, the un-accepting parents of my amazing girlfriend? I have to show them that I love her, and that she's happy." I take a deep breathe, and step towards the raven haired beauty. As I lace my fingers with hers, we walk towards her parent's parked car.
"Nervous?" she ask.
"I'm Erica Hahn, am I ever nervous?"
3. Happy Ending - Mika (Callie)
You just walked away, and now? Now there's no chance for our happy ending. I'll never get to tell you that I spent the entire day anticipating the dinner we had planned that night. I wanted to tell you that I thought I was seeing leaves too, but I wanted to talk to you about it. Now there's no chance. And I won't be able to tell Addison that I was in the middle of a perfect fairytale and that I had the most amazing girlfriend. Because now? Now we're not together.
I hate that my head works this way, like I'm having some sort of conversation with someone, but it's how I communicate my thoughts without actually talking to someone. That's one of my biggest fears, talking to people about my feelings, so I bottle them all up inside and have conversations in my head. It helps and I usually feel like I've gotten things off my chest, but I know it's not the same as actually talking to you about what's bothering me. I'm sorry I didn't follow you last night. But you.. you left. And it was so unexpected. I know I'm not good at this relationship thing, but I knew I wanted to spent my life with you. Now I have to live the rest of my life, knowing you have to live yours, but we can't live them out together.
4. You and I Both - Jason Mraz (Erica)
I'm going to look the bright side of things this time. I'm usually a pessimist, but I can't be this time. Not when It comes to you, Callie Torres. We loved each other so much, even if you didn't realize it, I know you loved me. And I seriously loved you with all my heart Callie. Others saw that too, like Sloan, he knew I loved you. I know he could tell. We were so amazing together, and I wish you had seen it.
But you needed time, and I understood that, but that day outside the hospital, my mind took over. I was so stressed out, and I just spoke without thinking. I was ready to wait for you to catch up, but I lost control and because of my pride I was too scared to go back to you.
I walked into Joe's tonight, to try and talk to you, but I saw a woman walk out of the bathroom, closely followed by you. I could tell you were with her, or something had happened. And you know, I was happy for you. I love you, and I want the best for you. Even if it's not with me. I gave this letter to give to Joe so he could give it to you, not to make you feel guilty or to hurt you, I wanted you to read it to know that if you want me, I'm here...
5. Internal Dialogue- Maria Mena (Arizona, Erica, Callie)
"The first time I saw Callie, I knew she had been through a lot. I knew she was sad, and I felt this attraction to her... I wanted to make her feel better.
I got to know her after that short kiss we shared in the bathroom at Joe's. We had a short relationship and in that short time, I could tell all she thought about was you, Erica Hahn. She was so hurt, and from what I've heard, she caused the pain herself from being dishonest with you. But she needs you, Erica. I know I have no right to call you and leave you this voice mail but I'm worried about her. There were a few times I knew she had tried to find another outlet for her pain, and tried to make it go away. All it did was cause more pain for me. I want to be there for her, I fell for the woman, but I'm not what she needs. She needs you, Erica. Whenever she told me she loved me, I knew she was picturing you. All I'm asking is for you to take a day and come see her. I know you still live in Seattle, and I sure hope you still care about her... She needs you..."
6. So Long Jimmy - James Blunt. (Erica)
Erica sits up, thinking about what had happened the previous night. She couldn't believe that she had just given up last night, and left that beautiful girl with pain written all over her face standing out there in the cold. They were so opposite, but they were great together... weren't they? No, she was relieved it was over, she didn't have to deal with Callie's gay-panic anymore.
"My stupid pride," she thought. That's what it was, wasn't it? But, Callie probably didn't want her anymore. They were so opposite that she couldn't even think about what could be running through the younger woman's head. Surely Callie would find someone else, there were so many people out there that had to have been attracted to that girl, and loved her deep brown eyes as much as she did.
"Life goes on, " she thought to herself. She couldn't go back now, how would that look?
That's it. Life goes on. Erica Hahn would move on, because that's all she could do now.
7. My Heart Will Go On- Celine Dion (Erica)
"I may live away from Callie, but I still dream about her every night. I know she's out there, and it hurts that she's not with me, but she's out there... out there living.
Wherever she is, I think she'll be happy. She was a strong woman, and she'll get over it. I know walking away from her and our relationship was horrible, but I need to know she's moved on. I know I loved her more than I could love anyone, it just took me time to realize that. I've decided I'm never going to be in another relationship, because I can't imagine holding anyone other than her in my arms.
I just need to know she's okay. I need to know she's found someone, a man or a woman, and she's happy. She'll always live in my heart, and I'll never let go of her. I know this sounds weak, and not the Erica you grew up with, but hey, this is me now. This woman changed me, and the change seems to be permanent. Every day I can't imagine going on without her, but somehow I have. I have to keep going, I have to keep living, I have to keep being an extraordinary surgeon, even if it means I'm without her. I'll always love Callie, and I hope somehow she knows this... "
8. I Have A Dream - Amanda Seyfried - Mamma Mia. (Callie/Erica)
Callie pressed herself against the woman sleeping next to her. She hasn't been able to sleep because she still can't believe she's *here* next to this beautiful woman. She had dreamt of this, but now that it was here, it was more than she could have ever imagined. They could finally live out their dream, to live together for the rest of their lives.
The past few months had been difficult, and after Erica had transferred to another hospital after their argument, all she could do was hope that Erica would answer the phone, and let her explain. She did, and how here she was, lying next to that exdraordinary woman. Her dream was a reality, and her fairytale was coming true.
Erica stirred, which brought Callie back to reality.
"Hmm, still up? Bad dream?" Erica asked, still half asleep.
"No, just living out an amazing one," she replied.
"Okay then," Erica said, drifting off to sleep.
Callie chuckled, "I'd say that's better than ok."...
9. Natasha Bedingfield - Single. (Erica)
Erica Hahn was single, and fine with it. She didn't need to have anyone around her to make her feel complete, she had never needed it before, and she didn't need it now. All relationships had ever done were try to break down the walls of Dr. Hahn, and none of them had succeeded until Calliope Torres, and look what had happened. She had been left heart broken, and in fear of losing any more of Dr. Hahn, she went with her head, not her heart and walked away that night outside the hospital.
She was done with relationships for now, Erica Hahn was just meant to be single. This was her declaration of independence. Erica Hahn most definitely didn't need a man, and didn't feel like she'd ever be up to the challenge of dealing with a woman's emotions.
Erica Hahn was single, and she liked it.
10. Wishing You Were Somehow Here Again - Emmy Rossum, Phantom of the Opera. (Erica)
"I don't make friends easily." This was the truth, I don't make friends easily. It's difficult, and I thought I had you, my only friend, the one that knew me well, and still liked me even though you knew the most intimate details.
I wish I could hear your voice, and I can't stop dreaming of you. This is new for me, feeling like I needed someone there with me, like I was incomplete without you by my side. I don't know what I'll do if I can never see your face again, and stare into your beautiful eyes.
Why can't I let go of my past, and why can't you? Yes, you have been with men, and have been attracted to them, but you're with me now. What do you need to know? Can't you be happy with me? I miss you, and I love you, you're all I had. My one friend, and now I may never be able to speak to you again.
I am Erica Hahn. Erica Hahn has never needed anyone, but now she does and she may break if she can't have the one person she needs.
11. (Just because I counted wrong) Bad Case of Loving You- Robert Palmer (Callie/Erica)
Callie feels sparks throughout her body when Erica's lips touch hers. She couldn't get over the feeling she had every time her lips touched with the blond's. She could feel the butterflies in her stomach every time Erica's hand touched hers. She had it bad for Erica Hahn.
Callie had spent the last few months thinking about how happy she was to have Erica with her, and to call her her girlfriend. She loved knowing everything about the woman, and how easy it was to talk about things with her. She had decided a few days ago that she wanted to spend the rest of her life with Erica, but she couldn't get up the courage to talk to her about it. Until now. She discreetly touched her jacket pocket, to make sure it was still there.
As their lips parted, Callie inhaled deeply, then spoke. "Erica, I love you."
"I love you too," was her response.
"And I will always love you.. I want you to know that.. I'll always love you... and on that subject, there's something I want to say to you. If you say no, I understand but I'll go for it anyway..."
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And there it is! It probably sucked, a lot, but it was fun!
Summary:
1. Pick a character, pairing, or fandom you like.
2. Turn on your music player and put it on random/shuffle.
3. Write a drabble or short story related to each song that plays.
You only have the time frame of the song to finish the drabble or short story
You start when the song starts, and stop when it's over. No lingering afterwards!
4. Do ten of these, then post them.
Here it goes... I don't know how it will turn out but.. I'll try!
1. The City Is A Drag - Hawksley Workman (Callie)
...I can't even count the number of times I've driven these streets, spent a night drinking at Joe's or taken a walk, but they haven't felt the same as they used to. I loved living in Seattle, I loved being part of the whole atmosphere, but without you it feels horrible. The only way I can think of putting it is that I'm living, but not existing.
I miss you Erica, and every part of my life is different without you. Every time I have a horrible day at work, I pick up my cellphone and enter your number, but never dial. I miss having my best friend to talk to about the good and the bad. My life isn't complete without you. There's this empty feeling that consumes me, and I can't enjoy the small things like taking a walk, because it hurts too much to think about how I'm here in Seattle, and you're in New York. You've started a new life, and I can't move past that one day outside the hospital... the last time I saw you...
In short, I miss you. That's all I can say. I don't know what you'll think of this letter, but I had to do something, I couldn't stand living without you knowing how I was feeling.
I'm so sorry,
Callie.
2. Smile Like You Mean It- The Killers. (Erica)
"You are Erica Hahn. You're not scared of anything. You can do this," I try to encourage myself, but it's not working. I am scared, and of something so simple. "Come on, it's just your typical 'meet the parents' dinner. So what if it's Mr. and Mrs. Torres, the un-accepting parents of my amazing girlfriend? I have to show them that I love her, and that she's happy." I take a deep breathe, and step towards the raven haired beauty. As I lace my fingers with hers, we walk towards her parent's parked car.
"Nervous?" she ask.
"I'm Erica Hahn, am I ever nervous?"
3. Happy Ending - Mika (Callie)
You just walked away, and now? Now there's no chance for our happy ending. I'll never get to tell you that I spent the entire day anticipating the dinner we had planned that night. I wanted to tell you that I thought I was seeing leaves too, but I wanted to talk to you about it. Now there's no chance. And I won't be able to tell Addison that I was in the middle of a perfect fairytale and that I had the most amazing girlfriend. Because now? Now we're not together.
I hate that my head works this way, like I'm having some sort of conversation with someone, but it's how I communicate my thoughts without actually talking to someone. That's one of my biggest fears, talking to people about my feelings, so I bottle them all up inside and have conversations in my head. It helps and I usually feel like I've gotten things off my chest, but I know it's not the same as actually talking to you about what's bothering me. I'm sorry I didn't follow you last night. But you.. you left. And it was so unexpected. I know I'm not good at this relationship thing, but I knew I wanted to spent my life with you. Now I have to live the rest of my life, knowing you have to live yours, but we can't live them out together.
4. You and I Both - Jason Mraz (Erica)
I'm going to look the bright side of things this time. I'm usually a pessimist, but I can't be this time. Not when It comes to you, Callie Torres. We loved each other so much, even if you didn't realize it, I know you loved me. And I seriously loved you with all my heart Callie. Others saw that too, like Sloan, he knew I loved you. I know he could tell. We were so amazing together, and I wish you had seen it.
But you needed time, and I understood that, but that day outside the hospital, my mind took over. I was so stressed out, and I just spoke without thinking. I was ready to wait for you to catch up, but I lost control and because of my pride I was too scared to go back to you.
I walked into Joe's tonight, to try and talk to you, but I saw a woman walk out of the bathroom, closely followed by you. I could tell you were with her, or something had happened. And you know, I was happy for you. I love you, and I want the best for you. Even if it's not with me. I gave this letter to give to Joe so he could give it to you, not to make you feel guilty or to hurt you, I wanted you to read it to know that if you want me, I'm here...
5. Internal Dialogue- Maria Mena (Arizona, Erica, Callie)
"The first time I saw Callie, I knew she had been through a lot. I knew she was sad, and I felt this attraction to her... I wanted to make her feel better.
I got to know her after that short kiss we shared in the bathroom at Joe's. We had a short relationship and in that short time, I could tell all she thought about was you, Erica Hahn. She was so hurt, and from what I've heard, she caused the pain herself from being dishonest with you. But she needs you, Erica. I know I have no right to call you and leave you this voice mail but I'm worried about her. There were a few times I knew she had tried to find another outlet for her pain, and tried to make it go away. All it did was cause more pain for me. I want to be there for her, I fell for the woman, but I'm not what she needs. She needs you, Erica. Whenever she told me she loved me, I knew she was picturing you. All I'm asking is for you to take a day and come see her. I know you still live in Seattle, and I sure hope you still care about her... She needs you..."
6. So Long Jimmy - James Blunt. (Erica)
Erica sits up, thinking about what had happened the previous night. She couldn't believe that she had just given up last night, and left that beautiful girl with pain written all over her face standing out there in the cold. They were so opposite, but they were great together... weren't they? No, she was relieved it was over, she didn't have to deal with Callie's gay-panic anymore.
"My stupid pride," she thought. That's what it was, wasn't it? But, Callie probably didn't want her anymore. They were so opposite that she couldn't even think about what could be running through the younger woman's head. Surely Callie would find someone else, there were so many people out there that had to have been attracted to that girl, and loved her deep brown eyes as much as she did.
"Life goes on, " she thought to herself. She couldn't go back now, how would that look?
That's it. Life goes on. Erica Hahn would move on, because that's all she could do now.
7. My Heart Will Go On- Celine Dion (Erica)
"I may live away from Callie, but I still dream about her every night. I know she's out there, and it hurts that she's not with me, but she's out there... out there living.
Wherever she is, I think she'll be happy. She was a strong woman, and she'll get over it. I know walking away from her and our relationship was horrible, but I need to know she's moved on. I know I loved her more than I could love anyone, it just took me time to realize that. I've decided I'm never going to be in another relationship, because I can't imagine holding anyone other than her in my arms.
I just need to know she's okay. I need to know she's found someone, a man or a woman, and she's happy. She'll always live in my heart, and I'll never let go of her. I know this sounds weak, and not the Erica you grew up with, but hey, this is me now. This woman changed me, and the change seems to be permanent. Every day I can't imagine going on without her, but somehow I have. I have to keep going, I have to keep living, I have to keep being an extraordinary surgeon, even if it means I'm without her. I'll always love Callie, and I hope somehow she knows this... "
8. I Have A Dream - Amanda Seyfried - Mamma Mia. (Callie/Erica)
Callie pressed herself against the woman sleeping next to her. She hasn't been able to sleep because she still can't believe she's *here* next to this beautiful woman. She had dreamt of this, but now that it was here, it was more than she could have ever imagined. They could finally live out their dream, to live together for the rest of their lives.
The past few months had been difficult, and after Erica had transferred to another hospital after their argument, all she could do was hope that Erica would answer the phone, and let her explain. She did, and how here she was, lying next to that exdraordinary woman. Her dream was a reality, and her fairytale was coming true.
Erica stirred, which brought Callie back to reality.
"Hmm, still up? Bad dream?" Erica asked, still half asleep.
"No, just living out an amazing one," she replied.
"Okay then," Erica said, drifting off to sleep.
Callie chuckled, "I'd say that's better than ok."...
9. Natasha Bedingfield - Single. (Erica)
Erica Hahn was single, and fine with it. She didn't need to have anyone around her to make her feel complete, she had never needed it before, and she didn't need it now. All relationships had ever done were try to break down the walls of Dr. Hahn, and none of them had succeeded until Calliope Torres, and look what had happened. She had been left heart broken, and in fear of losing any more of Dr. Hahn, she went with her head, not her heart and walked away that night outside the hospital.
She was done with relationships for now, Erica Hahn was just meant to be single. This was her declaration of independence. Erica Hahn most definitely didn't need a man, and didn't feel like she'd ever be up to the challenge of dealing with a woman's emotions.
Erica Hahn was single, and she liked it.
10. Wishing You Were Somehow Here Again - Emmy Rossum, Phantom of the Opera. (Erica)
"I don't make friends easily." This was the truth, I don't make friends easily. It's difficult, and I thought I had you, my only friend, the one that knew me well, and still liked me even though you knew the most intimate details.
I wish I could hear your voice, and I can't stop dreaming of you. This is new for me, feeling like I needed someone there with me, like I was incomplete without you by my side. I don't know what I'll do if I can never see your face again, and stare into your beautiful eyes.
Why can't I let go of my past, and why can't you? Yes, you have been with men, and have been attracted to them, but you're with me now. What do you need to know? Can't you be happy with me? I miss you, and I love you, you're all I had. My one friend, and now I may never be able to speak to you again.
I am Erica Hahn. Erica Hahn has never needed anyone, but now she does and she may break if she can't have the one person she needs.
11. (Just because I counted wrong) Bad Case of Loving You- Robert Palmer (Callie/Erica)
Callie feels sparks throughout her body when Erica's lips touch hers. She couldn't get over the feeling she had every time her lips touched with the blond's. She could feel the butterflies in her stomach every time Erica's hand touched hers. She had it bad for Erica Hahn.
Callie had spent the last few months thinking about how happy she was to have Erica with her, and to call her her girlfriend. She loved knowing everything about the woman, and how easy it was to talk about things with her. She had decided a few days ago that she wanted to spend the rest of her life with Erica, but she couldn't get up the courage to talk to her about it. Until now. She discreetly touched her jacket pocket, to make sure it was still there.
As their lips parted, Callie inhaled deeply, then spoke. "Erica, I love you."
"I love you too," was her response.
"And I will always love you.. I want you to know that.. I'll always love you... and on that subject, there's something I want to say to you. If you say no, I understand but I'll go for it anyway..."
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And there it is! It probably sucked, a lot, but it was fun!