clock watching.
waiting for the ringing
of a voice to say the one word i want
f-u-n.
thirty minutes left until its out of the question.
im not good at this game.

830 am.
lucero.
the best dreams leave you sad and sullen.
the best movies leave you with a peice of hapiness, and a heavy heart.
i take pictures for the mere amusement.
artistic and constantly on a circle.
in constant need of attention.
selfish and jealous.
i live in films.
i love in the distance.
theyll never be able to fix this.

never. ever.

830 am.
lucero.
the best dreams leave you sad and sullen.
the best movies leave you with a peice of hapiness, and a heavy heart.
i take pictures for the mere amusement.
artistic and constantly on a circle.
in constant need of attention.
selfish and jealous.
i live in films.
i love in the distance.
theyll never be able to fix this.

never. ever.

sex.
jeans.
and rock'n'roll.
the next generation.
all this fuckin emo is dying.
i smile.
throw out your note books.
this is time for living.

overly sentimental with a large helping of nostalgia.
a little blow. and some popsicles.
and youve got tonight.

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would you run away with me.
hand in hand.
not knowing the destination.
just running.
the smiles will come as soon as we break the border.
falling face first into ....ocean breezes?
..oh would you. would you?
you wouldnt even have to mumble.
less communication.
more hands on.
this is what i need.
is this what your willing to give?

grey and white.
everythings this predictable.
no matter what the plans.
it all falls back to the same conversations.
the same films.
the same foreplay.
counting the chips in paint.
a million mix cds memorized.
this isnt the consistancy i was wishing for.

sitting in that car. it felt within reach.
i could almost imagine holding the wheel.
shes going to be mine. give it a few months.
and 9,000 dollars.
ill drive all through the night
to places that mean nothing.
shell be my get away.
in search of a lover to read the road signs.

dan is the best, and i love love love love love him!
and one day we are going to get married.

( thank you dan. for the best entry ever. and for helping the journal design retarded)